[ He could argue. He should argue, because he can't just stop worrying. It doesn't work like that. But a part of him is less worried anyway, because she's here, and she's okay, and while there's probably a big part of her that isn't okay... it's not like what had happened after the Shimmer. Even if she's not okay, she's not breaking apart at the seams.
Some things still feel dreary and awful. He still feels the weight of his failure, the weight of how bad things got before he was able to do anything to stop it, the fact that in the end, he hadn't done anything, the people who got hurt, and the fact that everyone knows --
But she says today's for you. And wouldn't that be nice? Just to be normal for a day? To try to just recuperate and deal with the rest of it tomorrow?
And at the end of the day, worry's good. It means she's still here to worry about. That she's still close enough for him to worry about, that even after everything, she hasn't withdrawn again, closed herself off to any of it. It's just another concession she's allowed him and, greedily, he'll keep taking them where they're offered. ]
Okay, [ he says, warmth underneath the weariness. ] Deal. You're a good friend, Ruka.
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Some things still feel dreary and awful. He still feels the weight of his failure, the weight of how bad things got before he was able to do anything to stop it, the fact that in the end, he hadn't done anything, the people who got hurt, and the fact that everyone knows --
But she says today's for you. And wouldn't that be nice? Just to be normal for a day? To try to just recuperate and deal with the rest of it tomorrow?
And at the end of the day, worry's good. It means she's still here to worry about. That she's still close enough for him to worry about, that even after everything, she hasn't withdrawn again, closed herself off to any of it. It's just another concession she's allowed him and, greedily, he'll keep taking them where they're offered. ]
Okay, [ he says, warmth underneath the weariness. ] Deal. You're a good friend, Ruka.