[ it has to be seasonal, he wants to say. it has to be something innocuous and common and safe because he can't, can't can't can't die here, he can't die or lose himself or become something mindless and different because if he did then what good could he possibly be and what would mutsu say what would mutsu think he can't put that on them he
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It is that time a' year, isn't it?