Oh. Oh, absolutely. And dying free is so much better than living free, after all. You made the best of the situation, but did you die in your wife's arms, surrounded by your friends, and will you go to the loving embrace to wait for them?

You say you're satisfied, but I don't see satisfaction, I see bitterness and grief; I see a man who would rather self destruct than spent five minutes talking to someone who can see inside his soul, because he so fears himself.

You can take control of that, Walter. You turned away from God and you think He punished you for it, but you can show God your contempt; not loving Him is punishment enough. You don't have to aspire to Heaven when eternal life, eternal retribution, waits for you below.

Welcome Hell as your salvation, Walter, not your punishment.