[ no one knows most of it. Kaneki hid a lot from people, and Haise does too. He only tells bits and pieces, here and there, and it's really difficult to glue everything together - if anyone was ever to do so, they'd probably understand very well why Kaneki wanted to die.

Sasaki doesn't answer for a moment ]

... I want to. Not just artificial ghouls.

Some ghouls aren't bad. Some we find them purely by chance and we don't actually know if they did anything. Because they are ghouls, they are exterminated and that's it - and it's wrong. I know that. [ Sasaki can hide behind the CCG words all the wants, and he tries!, but things have been getting so damn complicated ]

But I can't say or do those things, Jaime. Do you understand? [ because he will lose his family and his life and everything he tried to be. ]