[ kaneki's suicidal thoughts weren't because of becoming a ghoul. when he still had black hair, when he was "pure", certainly depression had already creeped in, and feelings of self-hatred were there, but not wanting to die. that begun after his torture. and after he realized he did everything wrong. ]

How can I? What can even a professional do? I'd tell them about ghouls and it'd feel like it came out of a book, to them; I tell them about kaneki losing his memories and me emerging from him, and that sounds surreal. even I think it's surreal.

We live through things that no one can understand. Even some of them I don't understand myself...!

[ sasaki's voice cracks a bit ] My own father he- Arima-san put two spears through kaneki's brain. I have sent Kaneki's little sister to prison so she'll be disposed of in a month. Kaneki killed his own best friend and lover and I'm the one feeling like everything is ending for it...!

How can I?!