[ They hadn't wanted to let him. He knows they hadn't.
But in the end they did, because what other choice was there? Ronan would have died if he hadn't. For Gansey, there had been no other option.
He could not have watched Ronan die. ]
I am.
They brought me back. Or, rather, they asked Cabeswater to, and it did. It...gave itself to me. Remade me. And then it died for me, the way I tried to die for it.
[ He breaks off, lapsing into silence. ]
That was tonight. For me, that...I was just there, Billy.
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But in the end they did, because what other choice was there? Ronan would have died if he hadn't. For Gansey, there had been no other option.
He could not have watched Ronan die. ]
I am.
They brought me back. Or, rather, they asked Cabeswater to, and it did. It...gave itself to me. Remade me. And then it died for me, the way I tried to die for it.
[ He breaks off, lapsing into silence. ]
That was tonight. For me, that...I was just there, Billy.