[ Gansey is leaning against Billy's magic, trusting it entirely. His knees are partly drawn up, and he doesn't seem sure about what to do with his hands.

This is the most vulnerable he's felt since he's been back. The most vulnerable, because it's the first time he's let himself be vulnerable. Until now, everything has been about staying strong in front of Adam and Ronan, not letting them see the depth of what has happened to him. ]

I'm not sure I know how to be myself.

[ He recognizes himself that it sounds ridiculous, and dramatic. But he's been through something that most people would term a dramatic situation. He thinks it fits. ]

I spent seven years looking for Glendower, and seven years waiting to die again. And these last few months, I knew it was supposed to happen. Blue, she...saw my spirit, on St Mark's Eve. She told me. It meant I was destined to die within the year. I've been running from it, and then...

Waiting for it to happen, and not that it has, I don't know what the future holds anymore. And there's no more Glendower to look for. So what am I, Billy, now that all of it is done? I'm not sure I know.