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[admemoriam]

[The video comes on, just a bit crooked, to show a scrawny teenager sitting in tall grass. He gives the camera a business-like nod, and then holds up a piece of paper, covered in blocky, red writing, to the lens.]

This is my bucket list.

[Self-explanatory, from the title.]

Who can help me with any of it? [He tilts it back to scan the list again.] Like, I'm pretty sure fireworks will be pretty easy, but I don't really know where to find a red panda. [A little nose wrinkle.] ... Or a volcano.

[That's it. That's the broadcast. He gives the camera a boyish smile and a thumbs up.]

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[quaerit]

[ So, you know that thing about not wasting his life?

Yeah, Gansey meant it. ]

We could take a road trip to an active volcano, if you like. I mean, flights would be involved too, but that's just par for the course really.

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[fayzedandconfused]

Ooh, Noah, you can kiss me if you want.

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[He sits up straight, and grins.]

That would be awesome! Do you think we can all fit in the Camaro, though?

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[A snort of laughter. He falls back into the grass a little.]

Don't make it weird, dude.

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[doubleblind]

[The list is adorable and Cosima knows she can help out, especially if she decides not to pretend to be a responsible adult.]

I can definitely help you out with a couple of these.

[fayzedandconfused]

You're the one who made a bucket list.

[admemoriam]

Hey, lots of people make these. It doesn't have to mean anything.

[Except it does, in this case.]

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Yeah? [His face lights up, and he leans in a little too close to the camera.] Which ones?

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[dreamkid]

[ Matthew doesn't totally get the purpose of a bucket list but some of these things seem fun (others slightly sketchy, but you do you, Noah.) He sends a short video message-- ]

Hey, don't go anywhere for a second.

[ --and then just a minute or two later he's tromping through the grass, phone in hand. He prefers being around people to talking over the network. ]

Can I see it again?

[fayzedandconfused]

Bucket lists are for middle-aged dudes having a mid-life crisis.

[doubleblind]

[She can't resist that excitement. Let's just hope Alison isn't watching the network ready to swoop in anytime she thinks Cosima is about to do something irresponsible.]

Got anyone to help with 8 or 15 yet?

[admemoriam]

You never know when you're middle-aged, though. If someone only lived to be thirty-four, then seventeen would be middle-aged.

[Technically, he was middle-aged when he was eight-and-a-half.]

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Nope, they're wide open.

[He's oblivious. It's been a long, long time since he even had the opportunity to get in trouble.]

[admemoriam]

[Noah's lying on his back at this point, playing with a stalk of grass next to his face. He holds out the list.]

Yeah. Take a look.

[doubleblind]

Not anymore. I've got those covered.

[fayzedandconfused]

[ Huh... ]

Then I guess I was middle-aged when I was six. And a half.

[ But whatever, it only counts if you know you're middle-aged at the time! ]

[admemoriam]

[Noah wrinkles his nose as he thinks through her answer, and his eyebrows slant downward suddenly.]

... You're dead?

[He doesn't sound as distraught by it as most people might - just curious.]

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[instars]

Only a kiss?

[fayzedandconfused]

[ Breeze shrugs, but it's more of a quick hunching of her shoulders out of anxiety and embarrassment. ]

You said it, not me.

[admemoriam]

[Oooh no, nono no, can't have sad little sisters.]

Hey, hey. It's okay. It's fine.

[He leans in closer to the camera, eyes wide and kind.]

I'm dead too.

[fayzedandconfused]

Oh.

[ She frowns, but some things suddenly make sense. ]

Is that why you asked if we could see you last time?

almost used george's journal by accident

[admemoriam]

The cool older sister I never had. Sweet.

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[A slow nod, but matter-of-fact.]

I've been a ghost for awhile.

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[He tilts his head into the sunlight to hide reddening cheeks.]

You'd have to buy me dinner first.

[fayzedandconfused]

A ghost. Okay.

[ That sounds fake, but she's seen weirder, so she's not really gonna question it. ]