text - absence makes the heart grow until it explodes

[h2no]

YO.

I KNOW THERE'S ONE THING A LOT OF PEOPLE DON'T REALLY WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE BECAUSE WE ALL GET IT: HOMESICKNESS.
I KNOW EVERYONE IS MISSING THEIR HOME AND THEIR FRIENDS. I'D BE SURPRISED IF THERE'S PEOPLE HERE WHO AREN'T.
NOT TO SAY IF YOU AREN'T THAT YOU'RE A WEIRDO, OF COURSE, I SUPPOSE YOU'RE JUST A BIT LUCKIER.
NOW, I'M NOT GONNA ASK YOU TO TELL ME ABOUT THE PEOPLE YOU MISS OR THE PLACES YOU MISS. THAT WON'T HELP, IT'LL PROBABLY JUST MAKE YOU FEEL EVEN WORSE.
I AIN'T EVEN GONNA GIVE A BIG SPEECH ABOUT HOW WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER AND WE GOTTA TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER, BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW THAT CRAP AIN'T GONNA HOLD UP.
BACK HOME I HAD A LARGE TEAM OF PEOPLE WHO VARIED IN AGES. A LOT OF THEM GOT HOMESICK AND WHEN IT OVERWHELMED THEM THEY WENT ON A DOWNWARD SPIRAL.
THING IS, IT'S REAL EASY TO LET IT OVERWHELM YOU.
MAKE A LIST OF EVERYTHING YOU MISS. EVEN IF IT'S SOMETHING YOU THINK IS SILLY, LIKE THE TREE THAT WAS NEAR WHERE YOU LIVED, OR A CAFE THAT DID THE BEST VERSION OF A FLAT WHITE COFFEE YOU'VE EVER TASTED.
ANYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF. EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT FROM EARTH. I GUARANTEE YOU THERE WILL BE SOMETHING HERE THAT IS SIMILAR ENOUGH IT'LL BE LIKE BEING AT HOME. EVEN IF IT'S JUST A GIANT ROCK THAT'S THE SAME SHAPE.
NOT TO MENTION GETTING OUT AND GETTING FRESH AIR ALWAYS HELPS.
DO STUFF YOU DID AT HOME. DON'T GET WRAPPED UP IN THE FACT THAT IT'S NOT THE SAME. YOU HAVE TO ADAPT TO HELP YOURSELF, THAT'S LIFE.
BUT THAT THE SAME TIME... DON'T SINK INTO IT. DON'T THINK OF NOTHING BUT WHAT YOU MISS.
IGNORING IT WON'T WORK, BUT NEITHER WILL DIVING INTO IT.
FIND A BALANCE.
DON'T LET IT OVERWHELM YOU.

Comments

[siriusly]

Jeez I'm glad you realized that at ALMOST...

[h2no]

TECHNICALLY IT WASN'T EVEN ALMOST, BUT THAT'S NOT REALLY RELEVANT RIGHT NOW.
THE IMPORTANT THING IS, ALL LIFE WASN'T ERADICATED.

[siriusly]

Jeez. That wasn't HERE was it?
I mean it's bad anywhere, but I've kind of been missing for a while...

[h2no]

NO.
DON'T WORRY, I DON'T PLAN ON REPEATING MY MISTAKES.

[siriusly]

That's a relief...
I hope things go well for you.

[h2no]

THANKS.
NICE OF YOU TO SAY THAT AFTER I JUST TOLD YOU MY DEEP DARK SECRET.

[siriusly]

[aw, friendly people.






wait.] Was it really that deep and dark if you went ahead and told someone you just met on a text?

[h2no]

HA, I'M NOT ACTUALLY SURE WHAT TO CLASS IT AS.
IT'S A PART OF ME I CAN'T FORGET NOW.
AND I DON'T WANNA DO A DISSERVICE TO THE PEOPLE I HURT DOING IT BY PRETENDING IT DIDN'T HAPPEN OR DENYING MY ROLE.

[siriusly]

I'm really impressed...that kind of thing is hard for most people, even for everyday tough mistakes.

[h2no]

THERE'S MORE TO IT THAN THAT, BUT I AIN'T GONNA BURDEN A STRANGER WITH IT.
NO OFFENCE.

[siriusly]

Haha none taken.
Good luck.

[h2no]

THANKS.
BEFORE YOU GO: YOU MENTIONED YOU'D BEEN HERE BEFORE?

[siriusly]

Yeah. Two years ago.

[h2no]

WHAT'S IT LIKE NOW YOU'RE BACK?

[siriusly]

Uh mostly confusing I guess. I don't know who's still here or where...my job is different, my house is different, I think probably all my stuff will be gone I guess... [yikes typing it out makes it shittier.]

[h2no]

WELL, THAT'S TO BE EXPECTED FROM LEAVING THE PLANET, RIGHT?
YOU CAN GET SETTLED IN AGAIN, FOR SURE.

[siriusly]

Yeah. It's kind of like...going from station to station. And that's normal for me, so thinking about it like that isn't so bad.

[h2no]

THAT'S RIGHT.
DON'T THINK OF IT IN TERMS OF HAVING LOST SOMETHING.

[siriusly]

I won't if you don't.

[h2no]

CLEVER.
VERY CLEVER.