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[coppelganger]

[ Wonder of wonders, it's time for a rare as hell Sarah network post. But today is an important day, and for more people than just her, she's sure. When she appears on the network early in the afternoon, she's subdued, but then again, she always kind of is when she's doing something on the network. ]

Anyone else really missing their kid today? Or maybe just missing their mum?

[ That's it. She doesn't have a lot to say. The questions hang in the air for a few seconds, and then she reaches over and shuts the feed off. ]

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[private text]

[pale_blue_arrow]

[He debates sending this for nearly thirty minutes. He fiddles with the lock and figuring that out for ten. He has no right to say anything. It's not a big deal, he's not even a woman let alone a mom, it's-]

i'm the male equivalent of a mum but yeah

i've been missing her since she died and being here is not helping

my kid i mean, my mom is fine

[-it's hard. To keep going with all these secrets gnawing at him from within. Even if he was at home, even if he had somebody to talk to, he's still too raw emotionally to say it out loud. The word 'dad' was too hard to type. The idea of speaking the word 'daughter' made him want to dive for the nearest hard liquor.]

private text;

[coppelganger]

shit. sorry. being a dad counts too. sorry.

[ fuuuuuck, nothing like someone telling you their kid is dead to make you feel like a horrible person for whining about missing your (alive) kid. ]

private text;

[pale_blue_arrow]

i just got here not too long ago. i thought maybe being here would make me miss her less. it didn't. but i think you have it worse, worrying about what you're missing that's going on at home while you're here.

it's too bad we can't take em with us when we arrive in this world. i bet most kids would think the superhero thing is great.

[He's rambling. He should not be texting. He is a mess.

He can't stop himself. There's a void where something precious should be and it's eating away at him a little more every day.]

[coppelganger]

they say time isn't moving while we're here. or we go back to the exact moment we left off. so i guess i'm not really missing anything. just feels like it. they also say we won't remember this. don't know if that makes it better or worse, in the end.

[pale_blue_arrow]

i didn't know that. i'm not sure i like the idea of not knowing i lived out this whole chapter of my life. but i'm glad you're not missing time with your kid.

[coppelganger]

i feel the same way, to be honest.