[ if Kaneki is everything, then D33 would have nothing truly, and he deserves more than that. So much more. He closes his eyes and turns away when D33 snaps at him. He must understand but he doesn't, and Kaneki doesn't know how to explain him that the thing he loves is just a thing or perhaps even less than that.

He isn't just selfish. He is selfish, unfair, disgusting - ] I am! And worse than that - that's the point! You just don't see it because I've been trying so hard to hide it from you-

But I can't, Dee, I can't...! [ he can't lie to him, he can't hide from him, not when things are like this ] You don't deserve that. [ he doesn't deserve this either, of course not. Kaneki cares so much for him and the last thing he wanted was to show him this whole thing. ]

Please understand. [ kaneki's once desperate voice softens again and he shakes his head ] I'm selfish, unfair, disgusting, ugly , and not even qualified of being anything at all. And the person you care for is just a mask. He no longer exists. Just fragments of something long gone. [ he did exist, long ago. But not anymore ]