I agree. It's why I haven't -- I didn't reach out. [ He shrugged. ]

But I also worry. What if he is in danger? What if he got involved in something? Perhaps he's been running with a gang, or worse -- Although I would hardly think that Jon would get involved in such things, I do worry.

But...you're correct that it's selfish to still reach out, so stew is all I do. Not that it means much. My son is in another world, right now, and I am here.