05 | Voice

[outlawrain]

Uh... hey.

[He clears his throat.]

So, listen. I wanna apologize for anyone lookin' for me for the past month. I... was stupid and wasn't thinkin' straight. Yeah, yeah. I know, 'Moses not thinkin' straight, must be every other day'. But, look.

[He grumbles, trying to get to his point here.]

We've all done some shameful stuff back home and maybe even here. I'm sure all of us have done somethin' that may have broken the law. I know I have and I'm damn well sure I ain't the only offender here.

...But shame ain't the way to go through life. Feeling ashamed of what you are ain't the smartest thing to do and I would know about things that ain't smart to do!

[And you can ask him about that.]

Maybe I'm the only one who didn't get it. But if you ain't sure, just know that whatever you did in the past, before you got here, is just part of who you are. And if you let someone shame you from trying to move on from that, don't listen to them.

You're better than anyone who treats you like you're a terrible person.

...And if you ain't sure, or wanna talk to someone who might know what you're goin' through, I'm always here! I can always listen and I ain't gonna judge you if you ain't gonna judge me.

...I guess that's all I gotta say about that. Uh... yeah.

...Bye.

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[Video]

[hands4healing]

What did you do, Moses?

[voice]

[outlawrain]

...I used to be a bandit back home. I kidnapped people, stole whatever we needed, and terrorized a town for a good number of years.

...And then later on, after I had changed my ways, I defended my best friend against accusations of attackin'... even when I knew they were true.

[voice]

[hands4healing]

Have you done any of that since you came here?

[...]

I mean, yes, those are bad things, Moses. But people can change.

[Except a few, but we're talking about you now.]

[voice]

[outlawrain]

Course not! I promised myself and my family back home I'd never do it again, so I ain't never do it again!

[ text ]

[enucleation]

It's not that simple.
Sometimes people feel ashamed of what they are because no one else will do it for them. Sometimes, moving on is not enough and you have to keep reminding yourself of that.

What did you do wrong?

[voice]

[outlawrain]

It's not about movin' on. It's about not hidin' it or lyin' about it. You shouldn't hafta feel so ashamed.

...I used to be a bandit, kidnappin' people, fightin' a whole buncha people, stealing and things like that.

[ text ]

[enucleation]

Some people did much more than that.
And they SHOULD be ashamed of it. Not because it'll make things better or make us feel better about ourselves, or even change what we do in the future.

But to remind us it's all our fault. We created the circumstances. And the consequences.

[voice]

[outlawrain]

I don't agree with that, tho'. It's not always our fault. Sure, mine was, and other people's was.

But if you can't admit it when someone brings it up, or you feel so ashamed about it that it has to be told by someone else, then there's a problem!

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[abduxel]

You really think people shouldn't be ashamed of the bad things they've done?

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[outlawrain]

I think that bein' ashamed and tryin' to hide it does no good. Why? What's the point?

[abduxel]

I didn't say anything about "hiding it." But maybe there's a purpose to shame, do you think? Unless you think there's no right and wrong, and the ends justify the means.

[outlawrain]

No, there's a right and a wrong. But who the hell says what's right or wrong? Is violence against someone who hurt someone right because it's helpin' someone or wrong because it's violence?

I don't get shamin' someone for what they've done. They know what they've done. They'll shame themselves plenty.

[ text ]

[nagachika]

[The ID reads : Fleetfoot.]

It's pretty unfortunate, but the human condition always makes people judge before they really know a whole story. Paranoid creatures of habit, survivalists, or whatever you wanna call them.

If you do anything worthy of shame, it's only natural that people are going to judge you if they know.


...But I digress.

Annie told me a bit about you, so I guess the point of this. I'm not in the habit of Judging anyone based on rumor or stories. So If you ever need someone to talk to, too, I'm sure we can get along.

[voice]

[outlawrain]

Yeah, well... they should learn not too. I'm sure they aren't all golden either. But I'm tryin' not to judge no one ever again. It ain't fair to ask people to do that for me if I ain't gonna do it for them.

Ah, thanks! But uh... what did she tell ya about me? I'm curious to know now.

[ text ]

[nagachika]

Don't I agree. Everyone's got their dirt, if you look hard enough or if you dig deep enough.

No-one wants to be judged on past mistakes or accidents.


And to be honest, she didn't tell me much, so don't worry. Mostly that you take her dog out on runs and that you're a decent person despite what that infoleak wanted people to believe.

[voice]

[outlawrain]

Yeah, I know a lotta people got somethin' secret. A few don't, tho'. I ain't mad.

Even if she did, I think we get along pretty well! Heh, I'll hafta thank her for that. I'm tryin' to be a real good person here!

text

[glitterateur]

Did something happen??

voice

[outlawrain]

Uh, a long time ago. Before I came here! Tho', someone decided to spread it all over the network like an as- jerk!

[She's small and adorable he does have a filter!]

[glitterateur]

That's so unfair!! as long as you're sorry about it and you're not going to do it again

[audio]

[extirpations]

Wise words Mr Sandor. I've always felt those who are ashamed of their past actions are lacking conviction in their choices.

[audio]

[outlawrain]

Yeah, well, I had to do a lot of talkin' with someone to figure it all out. Heh. And jus' call me Moses, I ain't that old!

[audio]

[extirpations]

Ah, yes of course. Do excuse my slip Moses.

No matter how you arrived at it you came to the decision to accept responsibility for your choices. That is something many cannot manage and so remains admirable. Although I must confess some curiosity as to what choices you needed to come to terms with.

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[databoner]

...Moses.

I'm glad you were able to move on from my harsh words.

audio;

[outlawrain]

Yeah, well, don't worry. I'm used to dealin' with jackasses. It's become a skill here, y'know?

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[databoner]

I'm sure you've heard by now I was not in my right mind when I said those things, but I would like to apologize regardless for broadcasting them.