I'm done trying! [ He snaps again, dragging his hands through his hair roughly, pulling on it hard to force the pain to make him focus. He has to stay calm, for everyone else's sake. A little for his own sake too, really. ]

You know how long it took me to get this way, Tommy? Three weeks, it took three weeks for me to almost completely lose it. I've got days left of sanity, if that. Every hour I'm losing another bloody part of my mind, and you want me to keep fighting? I've been fighting, longer than you can possibly imagine! I'm done with it, all of it! I should've been done with it back in the Maze, I shouldn't be here now and none of this would bloody be happening. Not to me, not to anybody else.