maskormenace | 03 video.

[ The video clicks on to show Newt, but he doesn't really seem focused on the device at all. Staring past it, eyes clouded with... something. The feed jerks around sporadically from shaking hands, and Newt looks filthy on screen, like he's been in one too many fights that he may not have won, covered in dirt and grime, blood and wounds.

After a minute of this, his eyes snap to the screen, clearing with recognition, remembering what he'd turned it on for in the first place. ]

Sorry, I- I'm... not well. I've got the Flare and it's getting worse. [ A deep breath, and he's dragging a trembling hand through his hair. ]

I think I'm contagious, and that means you're all infected unless... there's people called Munies- [ his expression sours at the term ] Immunes, shanks that don't get sick with it. Don't know if they exist here, you're better off going to a hospital, getting tested for disease or somethin'.

Just- for God's sake, don't bloody breathe on anyone until you do or we'll all be dead.

[ private to housemates & castmates ]

I'm not coming back. Don't look for me this time, it's better this way.

[ ooc| this is newt's announcement for the flaring up plot! commence mass hysteria and crank outbreaks and all that fun stuff

eta: here is a catch-all log for plot shenanigans, if you so desire! ]

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I'm done trying! [ He snaps again, dragging his hands through his hair roughly, pulling on it hard to force the pain to make him focus. He has to stay calm, for everyone else's sake. A little for his own sake too, really. ]

You know how long it took me to get this way, Tommy? Three weeks, it took three weeks for me to almost completely lose it. I've got days left of sanity, if that. Every hour I'm losing another bloody part of my mind, and you want me to keep fighting? I've been fighting, longer than you can possibly imagine! I'm done with it, all of it! I should've been done with it back in the Maze, I shouldn't be here now and none of this would bloody be happening. Not to me, not to anybody else.

Edited 2015-05-05 14:06 (UTC)

What do you mean, back in the Maze? Just give up like Gally did? Like the others that stayed behind? [ his brow furrows, and he tries to remind himself that the flare is eating away at newt's brain, that he's not thinking right. newt and minho had been the ones steadfast behind him in trying to get out, though. he knew he hated the maze, but all the more reason to get through it, right? ]

Look, if you wanna go sit in a corner and wait for it to be over, fine. But when we figure this out, you better not try to push us away.

[ like he's doing now. because the second thomas figures out a viable solution, newt is the first person he's going for. not only because of how important he is to him, but because his illness is the farthest advanced from anyone's here. ]

[ Newt sneers, and there's something feral about it. But what comes after is worse. What comes after is what Newt never meant to say to anyone else. ]

You don't remember how I got my limp, do ya, Tommy? Even if you probably watched me bloody jump. Bet you shanks took plenty of notes on how I reacted to the Maze before you went and tried to play hero for all of us. I've hated every second of every day, and I'm done fighting it.

Edited (wow I didnt even finish this tag) 2015-05-11 20:24 (UTC)

03 video.

private video;

private video;

private video; cw suicidal ideation the fact we've have to have this for two threads now