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[enucleation]

They tell you to check your mental health. Keep your head in place. Ask for help, talk to someone so you'll feel better. Talk about what?

Everyone tries to help, everyone tries to relate. Tries to give their insight and their support, their professional opinion and healing. But if you haven't seen the world burning, how are you going to talk about that, how are you going to help someone who has gone mad because of that?

If you are crazy, you are crazy. Talking won't undo that.
I think we are all crazy, here. Fucked up. Just in different degrees and angles. Isn't being crazy a good response to a world that is just as crazy? And sometimes crazy is just normal. You can't even tell the difference.

[ what was the point of this post again? Ah, yes- ]

Annie Leonhart is gone. Reiner Braun has left sometime before that, but Annie never got around to let others know. I don't know where their dog is.

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[cartesianspidertank]

That's unfortunate! I liked Annie. They had a cute dog :(

[enucleation]

Rex is still around somewhere.

[cartesianspidertank]

Is he being taken care of??

I could adopt him if no one else is!

[ Tachikoma will be the best pet owner! ]

[likeabawws]

[ does he really wanna interact with yet another crazy person? does he really wanna complicate his life more like this?

...apparently. ]

talking might not undo it but it can help

people want to relate because they want you to know you arent alone and you dont have to let it make you crazy. they want to help you find better ways to deal with it.

and if you stay crazy because the world is crazy, its dangerous for the people you care about

[ he thinks anyway??? oh god, what is he doing, trying to dispense advice. he can't even solve his own problems without a bullet to the head. ]

[enucleation]

[ you precious cinnamon bun ]

That's bullshit. You are running around in circles; talking might slow you down, but you are still going in circles.

Things get loud and then what? Others can't handle them. They can't hear how loud it gets and they get confused and don't know what to do. "I came from a world where humanity was locked behind walls and outside giants lived to kill humans"; you can't possibly relate to that. Chances are, you don't even know what to say.

The world is warped and that's how things are. You adapt to it, adapt to keep your place in it and the place of those you care for. Maybe others see that as sanity, maybe others will see it as insanity. Like I said, it's hard to know what is sane and isn't because of fucked things are.

[likeabawws]

that's wrong!!

just because you can't relate doesn't mean you can't try. you learn how to help them. thats what you do for people you care about.

its not the world thats messed up, its the people. and itll only stay that way if people think its okay to go crazy instead of trying to help

permatext

[deadtective]

[on one hand, Hazel really didn't care for Annie so she isn't broken up about her departure at all, although she does feel a small twinge of disappointment over Reiner. on the other, Kaneki is obviously in the process of mildly flipping his lid again, and it'd be a real shitty thing to just scroll on by that.]

Just because you didn't see the fire in action doesn't mean you've never dealt with it. But that's just shitty semantics, so whatever.

It's not about fixing yourself, anyway; it's about slapping on enough bandaids so you can get through the day without having a meltdown. That's all it is.

[enucleation]

[ when isn't Kaneki flipping his lid c'mon ]

Maybe it's just semantics. But there are different kinds of fire and they happen for different reasons. Something like that. It's hard to get into metaphors right now.

That's all there is to it. I don't see "talking about it" as a band-aid, though. More like scratching at the wound. [ oh look, he does have some metaphors left after all ]

[deadtective]

[yeah but usually he's a little more subtle about it. keep it together, man.]

Metaphors are pretty shitty anyway. And I like you, but not enough to look up burn terminology for abstract replies.

[a halfhearted stab at a joke, because she feels like she needs some kind of safety net for herself if she ends up talking a little too personally. something stupid to hide behind.]

Yeah, it's dumb, but most people are more optimistic than I am. I think they hope that if somebody else listens and kind of tries to understand, even if they can't help, it'll take some of that pressure off.

And it doesn't really matter if that's true for people like that, you know? They can lie to themselves that it's working, and that's another day they get through.

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[glowsferatu]

a psychiatric professional isnt consulted for their direct experience with trauma
it is their understanding in the way a mind reacts to that trauma and how to minimize the damage
to develop methods by which we can cope and contain our craziness so it doesnt leak messily over everyone else
a year ago i might have similarly disparaged the practice
but having been a patient of it now i think that may have been short-sighted

and we arent all crazy
saying that only makes the word meaningless
normal is already a useless term but crazy should be reserved for those of us whove actually earned it

rex is in my care
i noticed annies absence three days ago and thought it best that he was looked after

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[enucleation]

I don't care. The damage is there and I put my own band-aid. Scratching it at will just demand bigger band-aids. [ except this time it didn't work so well and he is flipping his shit all over the network YEAH w2g ken ]

Angles and degrees. There is crazy and crazier.

Will you keep him?

[attainment]

Thank you for informing us about Annie.

I'm not in any position to comment on the rest of your message, but that's probably just as well. I'm sure other people have plenty to say.

[He's one of those people who really ought to be talking to a mental health professional, but Barnaby himself got Ported out shortly after the last time he tried asking for help. In light of those circumstances, it's hard not to wonder about the futility of trying again.]

[enucleation]

You are welcome.

And it doesn't matter what they say. It won't change.

[lisping]

iimo 'profe22iional' opiiniion2 are hoofbea2t excrement
can't under2tand wiithout liiviing iit
2ometiime2 ii wonder iif alterniia had the riight iidea
ii mean, we'd be dead or en2laved
but we're halfway there here, two


[which is to say, he feels you bro]

[enucleation]

Can't understand if you aren't even from the world where it happened.
Then it's just speaking words you hope it works.
Hope doesn't work. We aren't in a fantasy world. And everything is fucked.

Are you a troll too?

[acclimatized]

I know talking about what happened can help some people. Personally I've never found it useful.

I'm sorry about Annie. I didn't know her very well but she seemed like a good kid.

[enucleation]

Me neither. Talking means things get loud and it's no good then. It feels like it engulfs everything. But talking is the only thing they tell us to do. Talking, talking, asking for help, talk some more.

I think she is, too. I'm very biased, though.

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[orangehoodie]

People connect by talking. It's how they show their connection, so even if they don't understand, when they care, they want to talk to you. Some people still love you even when you're messed up, no matter how much.

I'm sorry to hear about Annie-san though. I didn't know her that well, but we met up a couple times. She was kind.

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[enucleation]

There should be limits.
Talking too much can be a big mistake. There is nothing wrong with silence. Silence is good.

She was, more than you'd hope from someone who lived the way she did.

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[rathercommon]

I think that talking about madness and all that...It's not really helpful. I think it's just that everyone's a bit different, mentally. There isn't really any NORMAL. There's just a bunch of different ways of thinking, and sometimes those ways of thinking cause people pain, and that's what talking does - helps you redirect those ways of thinking so that it gets less painful.

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[enucleation]

It's true, everyone is different. And from different worlds. That's why talking won't do anything. It doesn't help- it doesn't get less painful. On the contrary.

Talking and talking is just reopening wounds.

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[earnedmystripes]

you dont need to be able to relate to care about someone
and you dont need to be able to relate to tell them theyre not alone

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[enucleation]

I know that. But it's a lot more complicated than that, too.

[hsalf]

When crazy becomes normal, what replaces the definition of crazy?
I think it's easier to not set a standard for what's 'normal' to begin with.
However if there is no standard for normality, then what is society but a farce?
People need normal and crazy both. Equal sides.

[enucleation]

In a world something that is seen as normal can be seen as crazy in another world. There is no normal here, there is what you make of it.

There hasn't been any normal in my life for ages now. There is no equality.