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[doneproperly]

[Well, what else do you do when you're being kept awake at 2 in the morning? Post to the network anonymously with the hopes of relieving your anxieties, obviously.]

What do you do when you think you were fine with something, but then only weeks or months later discover that perhaps you actually aren't?

On a completely unrelated point: those of you who are dead back home, how do you cope with that knowledge? Feel free to respond anonymously if you wish-- I find it more cathartic, especially where personal questions are concerned.

On another completely unrelated point: I am now taking suggestions for sleeping aids.

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[helladoomed]

try not to think about it

also pot is great for sleeping. won't even really dream

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[doneproperly]

My usual approach. But it hasn't been working so well of late.

I was hoping for a non-addictive solution, but I thank you for the suggestion.

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[earnedmystripes]

1. are you entirely sure those points are unrelated
2. are you old enough to drink

[as soon as he sends it he feels vaguely sick that asking the second question is even required. ugh, dead kids. why.]

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[doneproperly]

1. Obviously they are. It was a weak attempt at humour.

2. Not in the United States.

[Technically not in Britain either, but that never seemed to concern anyone back home.]

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[glitterateur]

have you tried meowing to yourself??

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[doneproperly]

... I'm sorry. What?

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[matadorable]

i made a list of things
i want to do before i die
and i focus on doing them
and enjoying the moment
surrounding myself with
people i love

someone suggested "melatonin" to me
it works great

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[doneproperly]

[Oh.]

... That actually sounds like a good idea.

On both points.

Thank you.

[23wishes]

i'm dead back home. i like having the opportunity to live another part of my life here. it's not as though i lived very long, so there were lots of things i've only had the chance to do now that i'm here.

[doneproperly]

In my case, the environment I was raised in was very close-minded, so I was never very aware of all the things I missed out on. So I was fine with how things ended.

The longer I'm here, however, the more I become aware of just how much I haven't done.

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[douchebag]

Depends if it's something that can be fixed or not.

It's not so much knowing I'm dead. It's having to look my killer in the eyes now. That's what fucks with me more than dying.

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[doneproperly]

I lied. The first point and the second point are in fact related.

So no. There isn't much fixing to be done there, I'm afraid.

...

I can't imagine having to do that. I think I'd go mad.

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[rathercommon]

[ The anonymity isn't because she's embarrassed by this, but more because it's not impossible that this is Nathaniel and if it is she doesn't want him clamming up because it's not some stranger talking to him. ]

What I do when I find out that I'm definitely not OK with something is I talk to someone about it. Usually a professional - a therapist or something.

Also, DON'T use alcohol to get to sleep if someone suggests it. Look: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/sleep-newzzz/201302/alcohol-likely-keep-you-awake-not-help-you-sleep

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[doneproperly]

[He almost laughs. He wants to type "Thank you Kitty" just to make her bluster, but that would give away the game, so he refrains.]

I wasn't planning on it.

[Just to be difficult, he doesn't specify which point he was referring to.]

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[knifecollecting]

[She doesn't bother with anon, but this is something she's had months and months to consider.]

It kind of sucks, but what can we do to change it? This time is a second chance...

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[doneproperly]

Right. A second chance, that's what I keep hearing. But to do what?

My life's work and worth was centered around my world. This place is a far cry from it.

[instars]

Melatonin.

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[doneproperly]

[Ah. Someone else short and to the point. He can appreciate that.]

Thank you.

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[hooffaceturn]

If it has to do with someone else, you talk to them about it. From my own experience if you just keep it to yourself it's...not good.

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[doneproperly]

Truth be told, it has more to do with the second point.

Surprise, I lied.

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[aglonby]

i try to understand why i am not after all and why i thought i was and figure out if there is anything that can be done

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[doneproperly]

Hm.

[That might perhaps be the first useful answer he's gotten to the first point, so he decides to think about it seriously.]

I thought I was fine with being dead because there were several factors in the event's favour. Mostly owing to saving the world. As deaths go, you know, they don't get much more satisfactory than that.

But you know. I didn't really factor in to my consideration at the time that I might still be lingering around after death in another dimension to see all that I might miss out on. Death's usually rather permanent that way. You're not supposed to stick around to regret it after the fact.

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[pushtheboundaries]

Can you elaborate?

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[doneproperly]

Hint: all the points on the post are, in fact, related.

Surprise, I lied.

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[huntergames]

it depends on what it is no?