video; cw for mentions of implied suicide

[brushoff]

[ this post is forward dated to the night of March 6. The video clicks on to Dorian, sitting on the floor of his apartment leaning up against his wall. He looks...well, absolutely awful. His eyes are rimmed red and his hair's all over the place, but he's managed to pull himself together in order to make the broadcast. ]

So, the mirages are my fault. Sorry? [ He laughs, though it's more of a tired laugh than anything actually jovial. ] I thought I could change myself, erase some actions of the past. Instead, in typical fashion, I seem to have made everything worse. [ he laughs again, though this time there's a bit of actual humor in that laugh. ] I am Dorian Gray, all my faults included, and there's nothing I can do about that.

I know how to fix it though. Don't worry if I vanish for a few days, that's part of the fixing aspect. And...I really am sorry I caused this in the first place. [ He's sorry if only because surprise, guess who's ALSO been dealing with guilt mirages for the past few days and who's been taking it really badly. Dorian looks up at someone offscreen. Before the camera clicks off, you can hear Dorian mutter ] Happy now, Toby?

( ooc: about an ic hour after this post goes up, the guilt mirages vanish, all at once. Dorian's corpsey body'll hang out in his apartment for another hour or so before getting ported out. FEEL FREE TO KEEP TAGGING THE MIRAGE LOG because trauma can always be backdated.

As a note, this will just get rid of the creepy guilt mirages, it will NOT get rid of the anachronistic mirages that are popping up throughout in-game as part of the overall March plot. great job Dorian, you solved about half of it. )

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[infomodder]

[Well SOMEONE is actually legitimately concerned about all this talk from Dorian because it sounds...ominous, for lack of a better word. Will is Concered Capital C and doesn't bother to hide it.]

Why would you vanish for a few days, Dorian?

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[brushoff]

It's nothing to worry about. [ grownass man, badly lying through his teeth. ] I'll be back soon enough--I always am.

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[pyrogue]

Dorian? What's going on, what happened?

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[brushoff]

It's nothing to worry about, [ said in a deliberately flippant tone. ] I've just decided to try honesty for once--truth be told, I don't really think I like it.

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[aggressiveapathy]

What did you do.

[ Given the choice between terror and anger? Yeah. Anger wins. ]

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[brushoff]

At least on my end, I inadvertently caused some imPorts to hallucinate people. I've figured out the common factor for my hallucinations, but I'm not entirely sure if this is common for everyone.

[ there's a bit of a brain behind that pretty face. ]

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[neverdied]

You fucked up? That's a surprise.

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[brushoff]

[ Dorian actually laughs at that, a short, bitter laugh as he rolls his eyes at Jack. ]

The latest in a long line of many--though I'd argue this one might be the most spectacular.

[devoutish]

Fucking up again, eh, Dorian?

[He doesn't even sound angry. He's just an asshole and a teaser.]

[brushoff]

It's a temporary setback!

[ or a massive fuckup ]

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[thevictoriandetective]

That was you!?

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[brushoff]

Why is everybody focusing on that part and not the part where I'm fixing it?

[ because most people don't expect back-pats for cleaning up their own messes ]

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[darkpants_warmfeeling]

So this is because of you. I should have known.

[Jacob is tired and angry and emotionally exhausted, which is why he's made the bad decision of making this reply video and letting Dorian see the mirage looming behind him- a mirage that looks a lot like an older version of Jacob.]

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[brushoff]

What, just because you're inconvenienced it naturally must be my fault? I don't like you, but I'm not petty.

[ he is so that petty ]

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[baetiful]

How were you the cause of this?

[ Baelish looks quite well, actually. Guess who has absolutely no guilt over any of the shitty things he's done??? ]

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[brushoff]

A long and complicated story involving my portrait not playing well with magic.

[ the magical equivalent of mixing alcohol and cough syrup ]

voice; TIME FOR SADNESS

[heckblazer]

Don't do anything stupid til I get there, mate.

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[brushoff]

I'm afraid it's a bit too late for that. I made this post, didn't I?

[ ha ha, it's a joke. ]

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[pummelgranite]

Wow. Pot/kettle, or whatever, but that's super cryptic and ominous.

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[brushoff]

Glad to see you're acknowledging you're getting a taste of your own medicine.

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[am_i_a_monster]

They can't be entirely your fault. The ones I saw were haunting me for a reason. I deserved it.

[brushoff]

Well I deserved mine also and it still sucks. But no, I'm afraid it entirely is my fault.

[beneathbluerafters]

What did you do? Where are you going?

[ Guess who's totally fine with the mirages? You can't have spooky guilt ghosts following you around if you're convinced that you've done nothing wrong, ever, in your entire life! ]

[brushoff]

[ thanks for that, Mona Lisa Saperstein. >| ]

You didn't have any of those mirages following you around?

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[wizzardly]

Oh, I'd wondered what that was. [rather mild, all things considered. Mostly because Rincewind hasn't been personally affected.]

...What's all this about vanishing? Are you getting a magician to help you?

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[brushoff]

Of a sort. [ NOT IN THE SLIGHTEST. ] Constantine's probably coming over at least.

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[glowsferatu]

[ Honestly, the mirages aren't a huge upset for Kanaya. So what, an actual walking reminder that she should feel guilty for having some relative happiness and still being alive after all these years. How is that any different from her everyday, aside from the fact that other people can see it? Pretty minor inconvenience, in the long run.

Still, it's Dorian, so she'll be petty all the same. ]

Wow, Dorian Gray fucks it up again. Who could possibly have expected that? Next I know it, the sun might rise tomorrow.

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[brushoff]

[ To which Dorian will be petty right back because fuck you Kanaya ]

I wonder who you're seeing? Oooh, I bet it's those fledgelings that you got killed!