[they would leave and come back, only to find themselves changed. Lapis herself had just suffered through such an experience - the blank, ignorant eyes of Tara staring back at her swim to the forefront of her memory once more with an accompanying sting of pain.
other people had lives worth living. she knew that, as easily as she knew that it would never be such a case for herself. but the knowledge of alteration, of her own immutable fate, made it difficult for her to completely accept such an answer as enough to relieve her troubled mind.
perhaps this was worry. it's been so long since she felt it, an emotion almost as foreign as joy.]
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[they would leave and come back, only to find themselves changed. Lapis herself had just suffered through such an experience - the blank, ignorant eyes of Tara staring back at her swim to the forefront of her memory once more with an accompanying sting of pain.
other people had lives worth living. she knew that, as easily as she knew that it would never be such a case for herself. but the knowledge of alteration, of her own immutable fate, made it difficult for her to completely accept such an answer as enough to relieve her troubled mind.
perhaps this was worry. it's been so long since she felt it, an emotion almost as foreign as joy.]