[ the silence remains and it's so heavy and almost painful. But when he hears Dee's words, it's even more so.
It's ironic, really, that after his conversation with Odin about pretending to be someone else, about wearing masks, Kaneki is one of those people who continuously wears one, specially when people get close to him. In his uneasiness not to lose D33 before he realized how ugly Kaneki really is inside, Kaneki built a perfect mask he hoped that would be enough. The rule was never to show D33 his demons and how empty he is, and to always be perfect while hiding all of those ugly imperfections. Sometimes it's hard because of course people notice, and that originates ripples like this fight he just had with D33.
He does it because he is afraid he will lose him -- no, Kaneki is certain he will lose D33 the moment he realizes what an empty ugly thing Kaneki is. But it's so unfair to do this too, to let him believe there is any essence inside him to the point he even says out loud he cares for Kaneki. How unfair. Kaneki, who does care for D33 so much, who likes him to the point it's probably love, he can't let this continue while he pretends he's still perfect.
It's the end. ]
Dee- [ no. ] Dee-Thirty-Three. [ Kaneki releases him slowly and puts some space between the two of them as he moves on his chair ] You don't.
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It's ironic, really, that after his conversation with Odin about pretending to be someone else, about wearing masks, Kaneki is one of those people who continuously wears one, specially when people get close to him. In his uneasiness not to lose D33 before he realized how ugly Kaneki really is inside, Kaneki built a perfect mask he hoped that would be enough. The rule was never to show D33 his demons and how empty he is, and to always be perfect while hiding all of those ugly imperfections. Sometimes it's hard because of course people notice, and that originates ripples like this fight he just had with D33.
He does it because he is afraid he will lose him -- no, Kaneki is certain he will lose D33 the moment he realizes what an empty ugly thing Kaneki is. But it's so unfair to do this too, to let him believe there is any essence inside him to the point he even says out loud he cares for Kaneki. How unfair. Kaneki, who does care for D33 so much, who likes him to the point it's probably love, he can't let this continue while he pretends he's still perfect.
It's the end. ]
Dee- [ no. ] Dee-Thirty-Three. [ Kaneki releases him slowly and puts some space between the two of them as he moves on his chair ] You don't.