No.

[No, he won't accept that. He won't accept that what he's been feeling these past couple of months - the warmth of Kaneki's arms, the ease with which D33 sleeps next to him, the comfort of his company, the--

[God, the joy that Kaneki brings him, it's--

[It's like nothing that D33 has every felt before - so much so that D33 can barely even recognize it for what it is. Happiness.

[Happiness. Easy, subtle, unthreatening happiness. Happiness that has so eluded D33 his entire life that he literally cannot even assign the word to it. He has no idea what it is that Kaneki does to him. All he knows is that he can't bear to lose it now.

[It is everything to him. And now it's D33 who sounds desperate as he steps forward, taking - he'll force it if he has to - Kaneki's face in his hands and pleading with his eyes.]

Kaneki.

Please.

[He sucks in a breath, swallows something down as he presses their foreheads together.]

If you truly believe that to have you is to suffer, then I implore you, Kaneki.

Let me suffer.

[He closes his eyes then, fingers moving to tangle themselves in the ghoul's hair. And he breathes against Kaneki's lips.]

I know I will go mad without you.