1st hunt | video

[momchester]

[The video starts a bit awkwardly, with the shakycam and fumbling of someone who isn't very practiced at the art of video chatting. A late-20-something woman's face is up close, clearly trying to figure out "how does I tech". After some fumbling, the camera stills and she sits back, looking a bit awkward.]

Okay. So, I guess this is what people do here. Calling the Internet using cameras.

[She looks too young and modern to be so fail at technology.]

Anyway- hi. I'm new.

Let's just say I didn't go to the, um, shitshow today- Thank God... Let's say I'm not gonna register. Don't wanna put on tights and fight crime, or whatever.

What're my options? Learn to knit? [There are at least three (3) guns visible in the video. She does not look like a knitter.] Start a [air quotes] "blog"?

I can't exactly do what I did back home- no monsters to hunt. No day job to go back to.

I kinda don't know what to do with myself.

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[momchester]

I'm Mary Winchester.

Since May? I've heard some people stay here for years. Is that true?

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[pale_blue_arrow]

some people've been here for that long, yeah. it varies. there's no way of knowing how long you'll be here, though. we can't choose to leave anymore than we could choose to come.

[momchester]

How can you start making a life when you know that any moment it might be taken away?

[pale_blue_arrow]

if you don't know if you're in for the long haul, then you've gotta be prepared in case you are.

also i and a number of other people here are dead back home, so. this is the only life we have to make.

[momchester]

That could've easily been me. I was dead for 33 years, until just a few months ago.

[pale_blue_arrow]

sounds like there's a story there, but i won't press you for details. discussing your own death is never not awkward. 33 years sounds like a helleva adjustment to make, though. you alright?

[momchester]

actually, i think i'm better now that i'm here. at least here, things are SUPPOSED to be different. i'm surrounded by people who don't "fit." it isn't just me.

thanks for asking.

[pale_blue_arrow]

i get what you mean, a little. not that my life and death back home hold a candle, but the basic premise i at least understand.

you ever have issues with the adjustment, reach out. somebody here'll help, even if it's the dead of night or it's an incredibly specific problem. we're all desperate not to let this screw us over too much.

[momchester]

Thank you. I mean it.

Back home, nobody talks to each other about anything. The world of hunters is just every person being an island. This seems better. It's good to have community.

[pale_blue_arrow]

you're not alone here. of course, the cynic in me would like to note that's not always a good thing. but coming out of the kind of high-crime low-income whirlwind of a place i used to live in, where people worked at making themselves islands for the sake of self-preservation, i can appreciate the community here, too.

i mean i still bitch about it regularly and i don't always utilize it properly but. baby steps.