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[heliophilic]

[Happy New Year, MoM. M is lounging on one of his couches in his apartment, a laptop partially visible in his lap.]

So how many of you have gotten one of these Instagrahm things? My boyfriend gave me grief about not having one of these--or any social media really--to talk to my "fans" with, so I figured one of my New Year's resolutions would be to give one a shot.

[The camera pans down to the laptop, where M's brand new Instagrahm "butwithpunching" (he steadfastly refused going with "officialm") is visible. It's so new that he hasn't posted anything yet. M turns the camera back up to his face.]

I guess the first thing is "add me." Or "follow me." Or whatever. That's what you're supposed to say in this situation, isn't it? Second part is a question--or I suppose a few questions...

Are you one of these people who pimps themselves out to get the most followers? Why? What do you all get out of this?

No need for the "how to" tutorial... I already know exactly how this all works. [The beauty of implants that give him an innate understanding of computers.] It's the why I haven't figured out yet.

Comments

[notayoungman]

And you continue to waste time on it.

[heliophilic]

I love my boyfriend more than I hate the idea of Instagram.

To say nothing of it being part of the promise of trying "normal" things.

[notayoungman]

No such thing.

[heliophilic]

As love?

Or normal?

[notayoungman]

Take your pick.

[heliophilic]

I agree with you on normal.

But

--And this is probably the corniest thing I will ever right, so be grateful--

Love is real. Andrew showed me that.

[notayoungman]

Give it time.

[ Him? Bitter? Probably. What he'd had wasn't love, but it was in that same realm of deep, life-long trust with another person. ]

[heliophilic]

I already tried to walk away from it. It was the biggest mistake of my life.

[He knows what it's like to be betrayed, but it's not stopping him from moving forward.]

[notayoungman]

Not what I mean.

[ Trying to end it is vastly different from having it ripped to shreds while it's still in your hands. ]

[heliophilic]

Then what do you mean?

[notayoungman]

It's different when you walk away yourself.

[heliophilic]

I've also been literally stabbed in the chest by a boyfriend.

That count?