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maskormenace2018-05-06 09:13 pm
restingstitchface) wrote in maskormenace2018-05-06 09:13 pm
video; about last month
[Crane's jacket is gone, as is his tie. He is peeling off a pair of disposable gloves when the camera broadcasts his image, almost every trace of emotion wiped from his face, with what little is left being bitterly suppressed, save for a twitch in his throat. His gloves snap off the ends of his fingers and drop into the trash. Though his voice is scarely above a whisper, it carries his audience. There is calmness in his tone; a slow and lukewarm drawl.]
You know how hard it is to apologize to someone's face. Perhaps you deserve it nonetheless; but I couldn't imagine anyone who would buy such a silly thing. If you ask me, I wouldn't buy it either.
[His fingers drum the table, clacking against mahogany wood over and over again.]
Whatever explanation I could offer you, it's not enough. I mean, I happen to believe P.G. Wodehouse was right: it is a good rule in life never to apologize. The act is done. What does saying sorry matter? All showing remorse does is lay one's head on the chopping block. [His hand on heart.] You see, I was raised to believe hiding one's feelings preserves one's dignity. I am not an emotional person. But having my thoughts exhibited like that was one embarrasing show, let me tell you!
[His casual inflection, injected with a little indignant fury, is smoothed by cordiality.]
You know, it's funny; for all that our secrets were fluttering in the air, they've fallen to the ground to find the best soil to grow. Except they're now thriving in a way I never intended. And I think that's a pretty unfortunate thing.
[The obscure apology hangs on the air as he ends the video.]
You know how hard it is to apologize to someone's face. Perhaps you deserve it nonetheless; but I couldn't imagine anyone who would buy such a silly thing. If you ask me, I wouldn't buy it either.
[His fingers drum the table, clacking against mahogany wood over and over again.]
Whatever explanation I could offer you, it's not enough. I mean, I happen to believe P.G. Wodehouse was right: it is a good rule in life never to apologize. The act is done. What does saying sorry matter? All showing remorse does is lay one's head on the chopping block. [His hand on heart.] You see, I was raised to believe hiding one's feelings preserves one's dignity. I am not an emotional person. But having my thoughts exhibited like that was one embarrasing show, let me tell you!
[His casual inflection, injected with a little indignant fury, is smoothed by cordiality.]
You know, it's funny; for all that our secrets were fluttering in the air, they've fallen to the ground to find the best soil to grow. Except they're now thriving in a way I never intended. And I think that's a pretty unfortunate thing.
[The obscure apology hangs on the air as he ends the video.]
np!!
[Don't worry, Johnny. He can play the rubberband game.]
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