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[hellraiser02]

How many people do you remember? Do you remember all the people who shaped you? Are you living for anyone, at this moment?

Memories are precious things in this place. We can lose them easily, and they can be returned on a whim. We have no control over it. You can record them, leave them behind here, but even if you hear or read them again, they may not have any meaning to you. Maybe you won’t feel anything at all when reading them, or having someone relay them to you. In that case, aren’t you reading someone else’s memories rather than your own?

Would you be happier to forget them? Or would you want to be able to remember them, no matter what?

As for me, I want to carry these memories with me, for better or worse, for as long as possible. It’s how I’ve always lived anyway. People that have died, people that have left. People that saved me, people that hurt me. For me, it’s a way of living. I know that eventually, I’ll leave this place, and I’ll forget some of them, but I don’t mind bearing their weight for now.


(Sorry. Another rambling, self-indulgent 'in memoriam' post. I hear these are passé, now.)

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[hellraiser02]

Are there things in your life you choose to remember consciously? Aren't you worried you'll forget something important if you don't make the effort to do so?

Not just this world, I mean.

[fauxmarth]

Now and then, yes. I'd find it hard to be so carefree about it.

[hellraiser02]

What methods do you use, then? How do you honor the memory of people from the past, or ensure that you won't forget the important things?

Some people have diaries, for example, or they celebrate the birthdays of a lost loved one.

[fauxmarth]

I've never been good with words, so no diaries.
The memories I hold the most dear are the ones I keep in mind when I go about my day; I want to live my life worthy of where those memories have brought me.
I admit that's not exactly proper record-keeping...

[hellraiser02]

I don't think there's any 'better' or 'worse' in the way one deals personally with their memory

Words, or actions, way of life is just as important as what you impart as knowledge, you know?

Learning from memory is important too

[fauxmarth]

Wouldn't it then be more worrisome to become unworthy of those memories, rather than forgetting them outright?
When it comes to the case of leaving this world, losing hold of what I've been blessed to have here...I suppose that's the only other way I can think, besides dreading the loss.

[hellraiser02]

No, I agree completely. Sometimes I worry that the memory I'm living for, the people who I'm honoring- that the path I'm taking in life is taking their memory in vain. That's what I think about the most, when I consider how to live my life.

I guess it eases my worries a little to know that I'm not alone in that. I suppose logically, it's probably more common than I worry it is.

[fauxmarth]

That's one of the greater goods that comes from having a network like this, I think. You're at risk of getting lost in your own head without hearing that others feel as you do.

[hellraiser02]

Well, it certainly isn't for rambling 'dear diary' entries and moral-philosophical quandaries, is it.

[fauxmarth]

[a beat.]

That was written in jest, correct?

[hellraiser02]

I haven't decided yet.

[fauxmarth]

Oh.
Well, forgive me, but moral-philosophical quandaries are very common here, so even if this network WASN'T designed for it, you'll find that hardly seems to matter.

[hellraiser02]

[Oh. She really thought...]

My bad, I made up my mind, the answer was yes

[fauxmarth]

[texting isn't a thing in Ylisse why would she understand text-based sarcasm!!!!! nobody sends a raven note to be sarcastic unless you're Severa!!!!!!!!!]

That's what I had first assumed, but it's incredibly difficult to tell when it comes to the written word on this device.
Regardless, have you found a little solace in some of the answers others have shared?

[hellraiser02]

I take it you aren't used to it, then? Where you come from.

I think somehow or another, I've found something to chew on. I don't think solace is the word I'd use, exactly.

Thanks for asking, by the way. Not sarcasm.

[fauxmarth]

Where I'm from, there's nothing at all like this technology, no. But thankfully I've gained many a friend here versed in the colorful ways one can communicate this way. I'll only get more savvy with time.
You're welcome. I suppose "solace" isn't the right word for uncomfortable worries like these...perhaps "solidarity" is better?

[hellraiser02]

It's better. Camaraderie, shared experience- something like that.

[fauxmarth]

A reminder, too. That we're sharing these experiences, even if we handle them in our own ways.
It should be hopeful, too...since there's still a lot of good to think about here, even in the face of the dreadful.
That's what I try to remember.

[hellraiser02]

Until it's gone.

[fauxmarth]

All the more reason to treasure it right now, yes?
It's all we have.

[hellraiser02]

[Such endless, unbridled optimism. Duo tried to put that on, in his own way... But sometimes he was this, this shroud of moroseness that he didn't like letting on.]

[He types a response, frustrated and heartsick, then discards it for being too personal.]

[Maybe they can discuss it in-person, sometime.]

I guess you're right.

[fauxmarth]

I hope so.
In any case, perhaps you'll find yourself coming out of the shadows of "unnamed" to talk with the rest of us more in your own time. It might be easier to do so with a better understanding of who you are.
Not everything fits everyone the same after all...

[hellraiser02]

[Someday, he sighs to himself, cutting his communication off there. Although as far as telling her the details that brought this on...]

[We'll talk soon.]