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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-09 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
depends
has this person been gone very long?
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-09 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah
i don't think anyone should expect you to be your usual self after only a couple of days
you shouldn't, either
it's okay to take time to grieve, you know?

i've lost my family here, too
it's harder than anything else

is there anyone else looking out for you right now?
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-10 12:18 am (UTC)(link)
when i first imported, i was by myself, too
after a few months, my brother showed up. it was nice. we'd never been apart, before
but he left
he comes back every now and then, but it's hard to have someone important to you and to lose then
even when they come back, it doesn't erase how much it hurt to lose them
it's hard not to expect to lose everyone else

if she doesn't bring anything over, make sure you get some food headed your way
i can never cook when i'm upset
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-10 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
it doesn't help the heart, but it helps keep the rest of you running

i can't imagine how much harder that is
i've never gone home, so i've never had that kind of repetition
i'm sorry that you keep experiencing it
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-10 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
the mental whiplash seems really stressful too
having to sort two different versions of a year in your mind
but if you've had to do it, it's not impossible that it's something similar for your mom
some people take a little longer to come back
but, maybe that's just me
i'm not good at thinking of anything as "forever"
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-11 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
yeah
it's hard to know how to balance hope, too
"forever" is impossible, but it's hard to hold onto those feelings for long stretches, if they consume too much of your heart
to keep an open heart is exertion all its own
you know?
like how you get tired faster if you sprint instead of only walking
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-14 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
you have to be willing to take care of yourself too
maybe it seems selfish, but
for as long as you're here, you're your own constant
you know?
it's nice when you can rely on other people, but at the end of it, the person who has to live with you is you


[ ruka is an expert at giving advice she never follows, but hey! just because she's fucked up beyond repair doesn't mean other people have to be!! ]
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-14 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah
if i may ask
how old were you, when you first came to this world?
how old are you now?
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-19 08:18 am (UTC)(link)
they're big years
i think 14 was the hardest one for me

i was 11 when i was taken from my world
i haven't been back since
not for real, anyway

i don't know all the things you've gone through
but
it's hard to grow up in a place like this
i don't think that part's changed much
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-22 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
it was an easier question to answer when Lachesis was awake
now i don't know for sure
but i think she must be aware of us
so perhaps she hasn't changed so much, even if she can't speak like she used to

but it's not an answer that brings peace
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[personal profile] dragony 2019-02-23 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
if it's any consolation
even if she were awake
she wouldn't answer your questions in good faith

she had a tendency to
teleport people a mile off-shore into the atlantic ocean
if they were boring her
or fuss with their powers
or blare music from your communicator at three in the fucking morning