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[am_i_a_monster]

See this <3 ???   <3 looks nothing like an actual heart.  Neither does this ❤.   And none of all the 'heart-shaped' things I see in all the stores lately look like a real heart.   The  ❤ is such a powerful symbol though.  It represents love, relationships, all of that.  If there's a zigzag through one - 💔 -  it means 'heartbreak' - loss, endings, pain.   I feel like I should be seeing more of those broken ones in the stores.   Valentine's day makes a lot of people feel more loss too.   

It must be obvious that I'm missing someone.  Not a romantic relationship.   Friends.  One was like a brother to me and they both gave me the sense of family that helped me get through the day.    And now, they're just gone. I know I can't rely on them returning.

This Valentine's day, I think I'll stick to the symbolism and make skewered beef hearts for my dinner.  It's a very lean organ.  After Valentine's I can treat myself to discount chocolate.  At least that's something to look forward to, right?

Is anyone else doing anything special to get through the 14th?

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[vanto]

Sorry to hear you're missing close friends. This place seems to separate people as often as it brings them together.

[am_i_a_monster]

It really does. Are you missing people too?

[vanto]

I am, it's not too bad though. Not yet. Can't really do anything about it.

[hampire]

I've heard that in medieval times, people thought the human heart looked like a pine cone.

[am_i_a_monster]

A pine cone? I wonder if they'd get the same feelings walking through a forest as people get walking through the candy aisle these days.

[hampire]

I don't believe it was considered a very romantic symbol. So probably not, no.

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[happylocksmith]

You're going to eat hearts?!

[...you may or may not have broken his brain here. Watch this space.]

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[am_i_a_monster]

[She switches to video quickly. Her past makes her suspect he thinks the worst.]

Beef! Beef hearts!

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[happylocksmith]

[Okay great we're dealing with an actual person here and not a Heartless, that would have been more than a little upsetting.]

Yeah but... hearts? Hearts are really important, even if they're beef! They're the most powerful thing there is!

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[h2no]

it seems to be particularly bad this year. you'd think imports in this situation could get a discount, at least.

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[am_i_a_monster]

It does kind of feel like lovey-dovey stuff is everywhere now.

There's always the day after sales.

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[h2no]

definitely.
i'm sorry about your loss, by the way. i lost a lot of family over christmas. do you have somewhere to stay, at least?

[kanyounot]

Oh, it's the love holiday again? I can never keep track.

I'm sorry about your loss, though.

[am_i_a_monster]

It's coming up. On the 14th. A day of love based on the day some guy was executed. There's probably a message in there somewhere.

Thank you.

[kanyounot]

There are just a lot of holidays this planet celebrates. Tough to keep track of 'em all.

But... it's good to remember you're not alone. We've all lost loved ones. We're in this together. We can support each other, I hope, when push comes to shove.

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[codeoracle]

I don't think the point is to look like an actual...physical heart.


But I think I understand the whole missing people thing. Friends, family...It's not easy.

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[am_i_a_monster]

Yeah, I guess it'd be upsetting to see actual hearts on a greeting card.

It really isn't. You're missing people too?

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[codeoracle]

Some people might be into that? But they aren't the kind of people I'd want to give cards to I think...

I am. Several of my close friends are back home now.

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[girlybruiser]

Valentine's is celebrated differently back home in my case, but I would have liked to give something to my friends here. Most of them were ported out a long time ago.

[ The boys, she means. ]

I am sorry to hear your friends are gone.

[am_i_a_monster]

I'm sorry too, about your friends. Have you found ways to go on since they've been gone? Or does it just get harder?

[a pause.]

I shouldn't have gotten so personal. You don't have to answer if you don't want to.

[girlybruiser]

Please don't fret. I don't mind answering.

[ She offers a polite smile to help soothe those concerns. ]

I'm fortunate enough to still have a couple of friends from home here. But I've also made many good friends here, so even if I was the only one left I wouldn't be entirely alone.

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[ambasciatore]

Valentine's day is the absolute worst. Why anyone celebrates the damn holiday is beyond me.

I'm getting a bunch of cupid status and smashing them.

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[am_i_a_monster]

I think it's because they have the people they love in their lives.

I don't blame you. Practically naked, flying babies with arrows are creepy.

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[pillz]

long time no haear baby girl
who fucked off on you?
not asking ot be shitty
i know it happens here & it a bitch

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[am_i_a_monster]

D33's gone.
I've been missing him.
Now Kaneki's gone too.
I'm alone.
It's the worst.