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[irwins]

[Shaun is not usually one to post things anonymously. He's always been a blogger. He's used to life in the public eye back home. But this... Well. This discussion isn't one he's quite ready to have openly. Not with Georgia around. Not with Becks also here.]

So none of us asked to be dragged to this place, right? But now that we're here, I can't be the only person who doesn't want to leave.

I know that could change. It could change fast.

How do you handle it? Living a life that could get ripped away at any minute?

I know that's always true. I know it real fucking well. But it's even more true and immediate here somehow. So how do you deal with that besides super heavy denial?


[And denial only works so well when there's a quiet voice at the back of your mind, one that hasn't been given a chance to put down deep roots or find its volume, but one that is there and waiting to whisper the worst sort of warnings and worst case scenarios.]

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[irwins]

Denial carried me pretty far. Months at least. Maybe I need to replenish my supply.

And yeah. It sucks a lot.

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[notafraidofyou]

There's always that river in Egypt, right? Maybe it's time for a vacation.

I think the self-help types would probably say something like 'make the most of what you have in the moment,' but that just sounds like a different kind of denial to me.

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[irwins]

Wow. That pun was bad enough I might die and not have to worry anymore. Problem solved.

No you've got a point. Just a different flavor of the same thing.

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[notafraidofyou]

Learned from the best.

I don't know if there is a really good and comforting way of handling the uncertainty of life, death, and multiversal kidnapping. Because that's really what it's all about, right? Everything's uncertain all the time, no matter where you are, and you never know what's coming at you until it hits you and then it's too late to prepare for it.

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[irwins]

I'm legit terrified of that best.

There probably isn't. I mean, there's a whole damn industry of self help to deal with that. I never went in for most of that shit. Maybe that's part of my problem.

[He's still not going to go read self help books, but hey. At least he can acknowledge a void in his skill set. A huge gaping chasm of a void. What are healthy coping mechanisms?? Shaun sure as hell doesn't know.]

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[notafraidofyou]

A reasonable fear, tbh.

I mean, most self help sounds a lot like bullshit to me, so it's not like I have any room to judge.

[Plus, his own version of self help tends to involve punching people, so... Healthy coping is probably a long way off.]