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[irwins]

[Shaun is not usually one to post things anonymously. He's always been a blogger. He's used to life in the public eye back home. But this... Well. This discussion isn't one he's quite ready to have openly. Not with Georgia around. Not with Becks also here.]

So none of us asked to be dragged to this place, right? But now that we're here, I can't be the only person who doesn't want to leave.

I know that could change. It could change fast.

How do you handle it? Living a life that could get ripped away at any minute?

I know that's always true. I know it real fucking well. But it's even more true and immediate here somehow. So how do you deal with that besides super heavy denial?


[And denial only works so well when there's a quiet voice at the back of your mind, one that hasn't been given a chance to put down deep roots or find its volume, but one that is there and waiting to whisper the worst sort of warnings and worst case scenarios.]

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[irwins]

Not me. Someone else did.

I think you're right. It should mean something. It does mean something.

I guess I'm still in the finding ways to live with it part.

[am_i_a_monster]

Someone close?

Does distraction count as denial?

[irwins]

Very.

I'm not sure where the line draws honestly. Depends how good the distraction is maybe.

[am_i_a_monster]

Try to be there for them if they have nightmares or flashbacks. It's better not to be alone with it.

You could distract yourself by thinking of good distractions.

[irwins]

Ah right. Well. Flashbacks aren't the right word, yet. But yeah.

Good distractions. Yeah. That's probably a good idea.  

[am_i_a_monster]

Hobbies and pets are good distractions.

[irwins]

Hobbies might be good. Gotta figure out what those'd be in a place like this.

Pets weird me out though.

[am_i_a_monster]

Could be just about anything. There's a lot of freedom here.

All pets?

[irwins]

Some more than others.

[am_i_a_monster]

Then maybe others? Doesn't have to be a traditional pet.

Or stick with the hobbies.

[irwins]

Hobbies sounds like a better idea. Not sure where to start, but I'll figure something out.