Anonymous; Text;

[facepalmchampion]

I'm trying to decide something important to me and likely not to you. Since I can't decide, I'm going to leave it to npcs and randos to tell me their experiences first. That's the best way to get a good, honest, cut and dry isn't it? Asking anonymously and letting the worst of what could be said eek out of the darker corners of your hearts?

So, hero or bystander: What was the most horrible thing you did both back at home, and the most horrible thing you've done here to, or in this place. Maybe to its inhabitants?

Go ahead, try and shock me. Anon me if you have to, lock it if you want to, or be brave and put your name to your sins for the world to see. I don't really care as long as you tell the truth.

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[Text; Anonymous]

[anthropophagite]

I lost control and tried to kill someone I love. Back home and here. [ both times he tried to eat them, actually, but he can't bring himself to write that. He also can't bare to attach his name. But it doesn't mean kaneki won't punish himself for it, so he will write it out and read it again and again, and talk about it while he feels like the monster he is. That's how he punishes himself. ]

[facepalmchampion]

Tried and didn't succeed I'm guessing from your tone.
For what reason? Infidelity? Because you could? Anger? Resentment? Jealousy?

[anthropophagite]

I was stopped.
There was no reason. I lose control, that's it. [ well, he was hungry on both accounts. Hunger is the reason. ]

[facepalmchampion]

Do you regret being stopped? Would you have rather just kept going and let yourself finally give in to whatever it is causing this loss of control?

[anthropophagite]

Of course I wanted to be stopped. I love them, I don't wish to bring them any harm.

text. anonymous.

[goldtoxicity]

spent somewhere between three and five months torturing someone all day every day back home
there are definitely like
worse things ive done
but that one was really unnecessary
ive been pretty good here but in alternate worlds i seem to keep leading super-villain groups and like waging war on humanity so
that's not great

[facepalmchampion]

If I wasn't aware of alternate worlds already, I'd side eye. But there's no reason to lie anonymously. What reason did you torture them? Information maybe? If you were leading super villain groups I can't think of any other reason than betrayal or vengeance for keeping them that long. Or were those two things unrelated?

[goldtoxicity]

unrelated. ish, i guess. i think its like
the part of me that can do that is the reason why in dystopias my first reaction is like well ok time to go full eye for an eye
but with this dude dude it was just vengeance i wasnt a supervillain i was just some dude and he ruined the life i was building for myself
he hurt people i cared about and basically killed me and i thought he needed to feel the full extent of all that
it wasnt the first time something like that happened just like
the most prolonged and worst episode

said guy was a tool and im not sad hes dead

also gave a guy a life threatening condition so he'd listen to people who needed to boss him around
that guy was kinda cool though like once you got to know him i still really feel bad about that one
he got better so its probably fine?

[facepalmchampion]

You shouldn't be sad he's dead if he went after people you cared about. Sometimes, there are better ways of dealing with things than just the justice system. I don't remember calling the police for help once in my life. Sometimes, it just doesn't work out that way.

If it's temporary, or he's gotten better, then if you haven't lifted a hand against him again I don't see the problem. He learned his lesson, you went there and showed him what he needed to see and that's that.

Let me ask you something, Anon. Hypothetically since we've been speaking in specifics and about adults who have hurt people I'm assuming.
If you were faced with the decision to help someone, or turn your back, and I mean a complete stranger... Which would you choose? No right answer, only honesty.

[goldtoxicity]

yeah i dont think the justice system couldve done anything about this one

[ they don't tend to arrest corpses, after all. ]

and i'd help them

Anonymous, text

[thepattern]

I waged war against my own brother, all because I wanted what he had. In fact, I did it twice.

The first time, he got me back by burning out my eyes and imprisoning me in a dark, isolated cell for several years. So that was on me.

The second time, it ended with him dying, though not by my own hand. I ended up more or less getting the thing I was after, but now I'm not so sure I even want it anymore.

[facepalmchampion]

You're the first person to explain why you did it so far. I can sympathize about family holding you back, or holding things over you.

Without outing yourself, you're blind now (?) lost your brother and gained what you wanted. If he was here, in front of you, would you do it all again just to be sure it was what you wanted?

[thepattern]

Was blind. For a few years. Would you believe me if I said I was remarkably resilient?

If that particular brother were alive and in front of me... No, I can't say I would do it again. Too much has happened since then. We have bigger problems to worry about now— coincidentally, in the form of another brother. As unbelievable as it might seem, if the first brother were alive right now, I might actually swallow my pride and work together with him to stop the brother who's trying to undo everything.

[facepalmchampion]

I would believe it. Especially here, but I've seen stranger things than beating blindness back home. I'll take your word for it, but I'm curious if it's super regeneration or some sort of paradox.

Family will always find the best way to bite other family in half. I don't think that's impossible. I wanted to work with my sister when I was younger, too. I can't say we tried to kill each other to attain a common goal, though. I guess the other question this begs is if you see yourself as a hero or a villain? Isn't your second brother doing what you did? Trying to attain a goal?

[thepattern]

What sort of paradox do you mean?

[ It's the former, but he may as well play along, as long as he's being anonymous. ]

First off, there are many more brothers, so let's not number them 'first' and 'second.' That will only get confusing for me. The brother who blinded me is E. The brother I'm trying to stop is B.

[ Wait. There are three brothers whose names begin with B... Bleys is dead, and Corwin has no quarrel with Benedict. It's only Brand who is the problem here. ]

Scratch that. Let's call the brother I'm trying to stop N. Brother B is dead, as is E and also A. That leaves myself, brothers T, G, J, and R, and sisters D, L, I, and F.

I realize I'm probably complicating matters by giving you the whole damn alphabet, but you must understand that my family is large and complicated, with lots of moving pieces. Almost all of us want what E had and what I obtained when he died.

N is the exception. What N wants is the undoing of all of existence, from the epitome of Order all the way to the depths of Chaos. To simplify it down to "trying to attain a goal" is to treat the matter far too lightly.

[Text - UN: Shiranui]

[mamaterasu]

[Not so much 'text' in the modern terms, but...Shigaraki will see words begin to write themselves on the screen of his communicator, as if someone were using it more like a pen and paper (or a drawing tablet), than a phone. It's easier this way, when you don't have hands but can write beautifully.]

It depends entirely on your definition of 'horrible', but...

I peed on a demon and it got so started its teeth fell out.
I have now done this several times. To several demons.
I then proceeded to sell those teeth to a merchant for quite a fair sum of money.
With that money, I paid a martial arts master to teach me how to make my poop explode.

[Is she fucking with him? Yeah, a little bit...but all of that is 100% true. No lies here - this is the goddess you got, Nippon.]

Anon still; Text

[facepalmchampion]

You've put your name to this so I can't imagine you're actually bullshitting me but I also can't put my finger on why I feel like you're pulling my chain. Have you dentist-peed on anyone here for martial arts gains?

Still text, still doesn't give a fuck

[mamaterasu]

You can believe or disbelieve what you like, it matters not to me, my friend. I only answered the question posed in a way I saw fit.

Heh heh. Not yet...but who knows what the future holds? ♥
Would you like to be alerted when I do, friend?

[Still fucking with him.]

[facepalmchampion]

Friend? Alright. We're friends. When you do, post on the network and I'll come find you.

that icon is making me laugh unjustly hard

[mamaterasu]

Oh? Do you want to watch?

Or would you prefer the teeth?

Text. Un: Lord Explosion Murder

[hot_handed]

This is stupid and you're stupid. Wasting my time reading this might be the most horrible thing I've done here.

[facepalmchampion]

This is stupid, and I am stupid. I should be able to make my own decisions, Lord Explosion Murder.

Everyone has a dark side. What've you done?

[hot_handed]

Never said you shouldn't, but they're still fucking stupid.

If everyone has a dark side, why do ya care so much?

[facepalmchampion]

I want to know more about the people I have to spend my time with, or people I'm expected to fight along side, or people I am expected to defend. I want to see what cobwebs live in the dark corners first.

Anonymous text

[am_i_a_monster]

I helped my serial killer father so he wouldn't kill me.
I lived with a different serial killer and never tried to stop him, even when he killed me.
I gutted a man.
I shoved a woman out a window.