maskormenace | 009 ✷ TEXT

im not sure this is really an anniversary to celebrate

I'm trying to see the positive side of things this year, Kanaya. Call it a resolution. We survived the apocalypse again. We're still together. You are the still the best-dressed imPort. It's the little things.

i think it does the event and those who suffered from it a disrespect to see that as the only important thing to come from it
we didnt win that day
we simply continued
this is probably not the thing to begin to display a new positive outlook with

We've both spent a year grieving. A year trying to move on and come to terms with the fact that we lost our home, were forced to relocate to a place that can only be described as a surreal backwards leap in time. We have both lost friends and family Kanaya. I am still grieving. Every day.

[a beat. she's hesitating. ]

This is how I deal with things, Kanaya. You know I'm not good at grief. My track record isn't exactly an example of well-adjusted rationality.

[ she listens to this twice, three times, working out what exactly to say. it's rare that rose really shows how much it affects her, and kanaya often envies that. but then, this is the consequence of it. a smile can sometimes be the most effective lie. ]

i dont know that i could do that
trying to ignore the negative that feels like it far outweighs a positive i focus on
no attempt ive tried has ever ended well
the negative always needs some outlet

come to the garage
i have something to show you

Alright.

[She forgoes a lecture on psychology; this is all stuff Kanaya should be talking to Chilton about anyway. She takes a moment to compose herself and then grabs a cardigan on the way out the door. ]

On my way now.

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are we celebrating for you guys? [ can he go buy more celebratory junk food? ]

Yes, why not. Kanaya, me and the cats. :)

[yes good pizza]

It's a hell of an anniversary, isn't it? I mean, we made it out alive. That's at least one good thing to think about.

We made it out alive and now we all get to enjoy giant milkshakes. I'm, personally, very thankful.

Hell, it could be a lot worse, right? I mean, if you can have milkshakes.

Even still, it's a lot better than being trapped...in that thing. I don't think any of us want to relive that.

We are all definitely against being digested. This is a definite improvement on the digesting, I won't contest that.

I guess the real question to ask is if we're better off here than we were a year ago.

Near the end, I'd say things were getting pretty shitty.

I don't think it's a fair comparison, Mr. Hundred. Things here aren't perfect, I wouldn't try to place them against what happened to us in the City.

[A beat. ]

This feels fairly like de-ja-vu.