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[ it's been a while since kanaya has been on video, and a while since she's felt presentable enough to be. but here, in whatever office she's working in, she seems to have taken all the necessary effort, pink lipstick and earrings to match her ever-inexplicable reading glasses. visible signs of guilt have never been her style, too much a ploy for attention. too pitiful. she's stable enough now to not make that mistake again.

never one to waste time not multitasking, even while she speaks, she's shuffling and organizing a stack of papers. desk work may be a little dull, but at least it's legal and safe. ]

I suppose recent events demand an accounting of the truth, some settling of where exactly it lies. And that file that was leaked about me, of course, is all true. The bit about Hobgoblin is no surprise to anyone who's been paying attention, but the multiple murders? Yes, that also was me.

And I stand by each of them, bereft of context as they are. I'm not the sort who'd only talk about the morals behind it, after all. I'm not here to defend myself, either. That the information was publicized is one matter, but I think the why of it is more important to discuss.

[ she doesn't stop shuffling papers, but she moves her main focus to the camera, only glancing down every now and then to what she's doing, to make sure it's being sorted correctly. ]

It's easy to point the finger at the Hornets. They were the instigating factor, of course, spreading whatever mental infection they'd concocted to act through us as their agents. It's what they did that had me railing against us, both through physical action and the propagation of an agenda to establish the danger imPort powers presents. [ conveniently, or perhaps loyally, leaving out inumuta's name. if people know, they know, but she doesn't have to drag his name through the mud alongside her. ] Not something I'd have chosen to do, an yet, it happened. But, here on the other side, left to my own thoughts without anyone else's encroaching them, I have to wonder. Didn't they have something of a point?

As imPorts, we are a gun that is not only loaded, but recently found smoking. Certainly, the government can advocate as they like, say that we were victims just the same as anyone on the other end of that gun, but I think that insults those endangered by our proximity. We are dangerous, and simply because we hesitate to pull that trigger ourselves, that doesn't mean it isn't possible for another to pull it for us. Something must be done for that.

[ she puts a halt to her paper pushing, knitting her fingers under her chin. this part is important, and she wants them to know it. she isn't here to argue, not today, so if she can reduce the arguments with a few words, she can hopefully avoid them. ]

Now, in order to properly address what I am saying, let's first get out of the way what I'm not. The Hornets weren't right, there is a difference between being right and having a point. They were just as dangerous to this world and its people as we are, and perhaps more so, for their willingness to fire the weapon regardless of the damage. They lacked the self awareness to recognize their own toxicity, which is where we must be better than them.

[ she spreads her hands, braking their clasp. ] I'm also not saying that mandatory nullification should be initiated across the board. Not now that I'm speaking clearly and singularly, at least. Nick Alford felt otherwise, but...extremities of that sort are hardly the first place to leap to. But I do believe some oversight is necessary, and I no more trust the government's capability nor willingness than I did when I first registered. Less so, if anything, with their response to recent matters.

We have to be better. We have to find true, solid solutions to promise we will be better. This is something we should be considering and discussing. Even if the blame isn't necessarily ours, the responsibility for addressing the aftermath is. We're meant to be populated with a number of brilliant minds, why not put them to use?

[ resting her chin in one hand, she props an elbow up on the desk, staring off thoughtfully. ] Maybe some kind of defense against mental compromise, [ she taps a finger against her temple. ] that would be a good first step. Just don't make it ugly.

[ she takes a moment to reexamine her papers, then reaches over to shut off the recording before continuing. ]

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Gotta have some good points, right? Even if the only good point is that it's not as bad as other places.

[ And that's a swing and a miss with that Wicked reference. ]

Edited 2015-03-24 19:50 (UTC)

[ one of these days, she's going to take him to a show at the theater. maybe let him freak out a bit when he sees the title on the marquee. ]

Well, whatever faults a place may have, it is still home.

[ Immediately turn and leave the show. He doesn't care what it's about, he's not sitting through that shit. ]

I'd trade it in, in a heartbeat.

[ What? No sentimental memories of-- Oh right, memory wipes. ]

Mm. You know, for all some others [ newt, thomas. ] talk about complacency toward our sustained presence here, it assumes that none of us don't have anything worth fighting to return to.

For us, this is the best we'll have.

I got some shanks back home worth dragging out. But it'd be better for them to come here than for me to go back. My world's totally shucked. No saving it at this point, and no use in me sticking it out there just because it's the one I came from.

I can...understand the impulse. I know others who could do with the escape, as well. Some chance to pull them from self-destructive path and influences.

But just because we want it, that doesn't mean it's going to be possible to accomplish.

Don't see why not. We were brought here in the first place, right? What's to say we can't stay here forever once we figure out how to bring people here on purpose, or stop them from coming here at all. It's gotta happen sometime.

For one, I really doubt it's never been attempted in six years.

And for two, I doubt even further that she would allow it to succeed. She'd see it as an attempt to undermine her.

Six years isn't anything. You don't give up trying something out because you hit the six year mark, no matter who or what is trying to stand in your way. Even if that thing happens to be what holds all the power currently.

No, you don't give up due to arbitrary passage of time, you give up due to repeated failure over that period.

You give up because there's no point in trying.

Too defeatist for my taste, but hey it's not like you gotta join in on other people's research.

No, I don't suppose I do. But maybe your tastes will change, once you've bloodied your forehead enough.

Doubt it. Don't know if you've noticed, but I'm a little on the stubborn side.

[ Gross understatement. ]

There's still plenty of time. You may surprise yourself yet.

But it's hardly worth arguing over.

Everything's worth arguing over if you've got some time.

Only if you lack for any better use of your time. Otherwise, it's rather a waste.

Says who?

I did. Just now.

Yeah, but when did I ever take your opinion on things into account?

Well you're going to hear it, if you've decided to talk to me. That's simply the cost of admission.

You'd think I'd have learned by now, but I was never good at that.

Trust me, I've noticed.

I try to be upfront like that.

One day I'll have to make you a shirt that says "you can't learn me nothing!" If only I wouldn't be so embarrassed to know that I'm the one who made it.

That'd be the one piece of clothing you wanted to stick me in that I'd wear with pride every day.

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