09 - text

[wayhot]

[She had tried to contact Gamagori earlier to talk, but oddly enough, there had been no response, and no voicemail, even. Then checking things, only to find that his name is no longer on the network... well. It doesn't take a lot to put two and two together. She'll stick with text for this post.]

For those of you who knew him, Nonah ambassador Ira Gamagori has gone home.

That's all.

Comments

[cephalothorax]

Yes, exactly.

It's disheartening. That said, I like to think that those who love us would not want us to wallow in despair. It does help to keep my perspective a little more upbeat, thinking of it that way.

[wayhot]

No, they wouldn't. But at the same time, it's kind of hard not to when somebody leaving means more than just them going home.

[cephalothorax]

I'm afraid I understand that better than most.

Well, better than some.

[wayhot]

[...]

I'm sorry. [She almost wants to ask what his experience with it is, but she thinks better of it. It's all very personal, after all.

For her, it's the fact that she and Gamagori are from two different worlds, so they could only ever be together here. It won't be the same for every case, obviously, but it's still a pain she's starting to understand very well right now.]

[cephalothorax]

Ah, it's not your trouble to apologize for. Indeed, some ways of thinking help with this, as well.

For example, you can consider the time you had with him to be a bonus. Something additional that you otherwise would never have had to begin with.

And then you can perceive it as a gain instead of a loss.

[wayhot]

That's what I'm going to try to do. I know he won't remember me, or this place, or even know I exist anymore, but I still have my memories of our time here.

That's still something.

[cephalothorax]

Exactly.

Well, I suppose I could mention that sometimes people return. Admittedly this happened in one of my cases. Still, it's always better not to expect it.

[wayhot]

Yeah, I know. I've left and come back twice, but I don't want to assume it'll be the same with him. If I do, I'll probably just end up disappointed.

[cephalothorax]

Understandable.

Apparently, it also happened to me. However... I don't remember the first time I was here.

[wayhot]

That happens sometimes. A while back someone from my world came here again, and he didn't remember the first time he was here, either.

[cephalothorax]

Indeed. I wonder about that as well, actually. Was that person truly me? Or is there another world quite like mine which served as his home?

Things that cause the mind to ache.

[wayhot]

Yeah, it just hurts your head if you try to think about it too much. I don't even remember the first time I left, but I was told I was gone for months.

[cephalothorax]

Months? Ah, that really is quite a lot. I understand there were only a few weeks between my disappearance and reappearance at best.

[wayhot]

It's pretty strange. But I guess messed up time biz is pretty normal here.