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[She had tried to contact Gamagori earlier to talk, but oddly enough, there had been no response, and no voicemail, even. Then checking things, only to find that his name is no longer on the network... well. It doesn't take a lot to put two and two together. She'll stick with text for this post.]

For those of you who knew him, Nonah ambassador Ira Gamagori has gone home.

That's all.

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We did.

I mean... I don't know. He was just a really amazing guy and he was so special to me.

I love him so much, and now he's just gone.

[ this........ hits close, way close. thank god this conversation is happening over text; there's a sizable delay between FP's message and when Kasumi finally responds to it. ]

He's not gone, Pheebs. I know it sounds totally cheesy, but he's always here with you, in a way. In your heart, in your memories, that kind of thing.

I know, and a lot of people have been saying that, too. It's just hard knowing that my memories are all I have left of him.

And if I get sent back to Ooo, then I won't even have those anymore. I'll forget about him, just like he's already forgotten about me.

[ There are no words to describe how much Kasumi feels for Flame Princess right now. ]

Believe me, Pheebs, I know how hard it is to have someone be your whole world and to have that torn away from you all of a sudden.

[ Shit. She hadn't meant to wax on about this, but it just came out. ]

You know, someone I met here was telling me that he doesn't believe we completely forget everything about this place when we leave, that part of it sticks with us even if we don't know it. That's a nice thought, I think.

It's a nice thought, but... that's not how it is, Kasumi.

I was home for a year, and didn't remember anything about this place or anyone here. I only remembered everything once I came back.

[Sorry she's being such a downer.]

Edited 2015-09-28 20:24 (UTC)

I've been home for a bit too, Pheebs, and I know that we don't remember a damn thing about this place. But I'd still like to think that there's a part of this all that stays with me no matter what, even if I don't remember or am remotely aware of it.

And think about it this way... he's home, and he's alive, right? You can take comfort in knowing that wherever he's returning to, he has a future there, too.

[ Because Kasumi wouldn't be able to say the same for Keiji, if he were to ever show up here. Hell, she wouldn't be able to say the same for Thane. Or Mordin, if he were here. Or Legion, or... ]

He is, and I'm glad he has a future and a home that he can go back to. I know I'm just being selfish and thinking about myself right now but...

Back when everybody was gassed, I told Ira I didn't know what I'd do without him because I didn't want to be without him. And it's true.

He's gone, and I don't know what to do.

When you're in love, you say a lot of things like that. You tell each other you love each other and wonder how you could possibly be without them--that's the great thing about being in love, you know. Sharing your life with someone completely and unconditionally.

But the fact is that one day you'll have to say goodbye one way or another. That's just part of how it goes. And it's okay to be sad and even to be selfish, you're sad and you feel like a part of you's been ripped away. And that's alright. But it will get better.

Yeah. You're right, and so is everybody else. I know it'll get better eventually.

But when is eventually going to be? And what do you do until then?

To be completely honest with you, Pheebs?

I'm still trying to figure that one out, myself.

Yeah, well... if you ever do figure it out, let me know first, okay?

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