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maskormenace2016-05-24 08:14 am
dualismum) wrote in maskormenace2016-05-24 08:14 am
Entry tags:
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- † aunt cass | n/a,
- † barnaby brooks jr. | n/a,
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- † count dooku | darth tyranus,
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- † josuke higashikata | crazy diamond,
- † kanaya maryam-lalonde | psychopomp,
- † ken kaneki | one eyed king,
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- † sasha blouse | n/a,
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- † will graham | wolf trap,
- † yuri petrov | lunatic
[ Voice ]
[ Sasaki will be using audio for this because it's much easier when you can't see his face. ] ... I think I'm done running from the elephant in the room.
Three years ago, SS rated ghoul Ken Kaneki was captured by the CCG and lost his memories. And from that, I came to existence. I'm legally a human, but not biologically, and I have no memories beyond the three years I've lived. [ so yes. Haise is technically Kaneki ] I know that this body is Kaneki's, and I know that Kaneki is somewhere inside my head I don't really remember anything about Kaneki's life; I don't know who his mother is, I don't know how he met his little sister, and I don't know what he felt when he woke up after being turned into an artificial ghoul.
But ever since I stepped out of the Porter, I know everything that Kaneki felt and lived while in this world. I know the people he met here and matter to him, I know his sadness and his loneliness, I know his happiness and I know his feelings. It's as if these are my memories, even though I'm not Kaneki. I'm not; I'm just... a dream. With two years worth of memories.
[ there is a moment of silence as sasaki tries to gather his thoughts ]
I know Kaneki will slowly take over, and with time all of the memories will return and I will no longer be Sasaki. I will be replaced with the real thing. And yet, I really want to exist. I don't want to fade away, that's why- it was really scary when I arrived here, when I looked at your faces, everytime you called me Kaneki, everytime you expected him.
I still can't tell you what is happening. It's a mess. [ he sighs, defeated ] About that night when Kaneki went crazy and attacked people- I remember it all as if I was the one doing it, so I want to apologize. I'll be visiting the native victims, and the imPorts he hurt and attacked, I'm terribly sorry for what has happened. And the person who triggered that whole mayhem- [ sasaki isn't going to say the name; he knows who it is ] We are going to talk.
Three years ago, SS rated ghoul Ken Kaneki was captured by the CCG and lost his memories. And from that, I came to existence. I'm legally a human, but not biologically, and I have no memories beyond the three years I've lived. [ so yes. Haise is technically Kaneki ] I know that this body is Kaneki's, and I know that Kaneki is somewhere inside my head I don't really remember anything about Kaneki's life; I don't know who his mother is, I don't know how he met his little sister, and I don't know what he felt when he woke up after being turned into an artificial ghoul.
But ever since I stepped out of the Porter, I know everything that Kaneki felt and lived while in this world. I know the people he met here and matter to him, I know his sadness and his loneliness, I know his happiness and I know his feelings. It's as if these are my memories, even though I'm not Kaneki. I'm not; I'm just... a dream. With two years worth of memories.
[ there is a moment of silence as sasaki tries to gather his thoughts ]
I know Kaneki will slowly take over, and with time all of the memories will return and I will no longer be Sasaki. I will be replaced with the real thing. And yet, I really want to exist. I don't want to fade away, that's why- it was really scary when I arrived here, when I looked at your faces, everytime you called me Kaneki, everytime you expected him.
I still can't tell you what is happening. It's a mess. [ he sighs, defeated ] About that night when Kaneki went crazy and attacked people- I remember it all as if I was the one doing it, so I want to apologize. I'll be visiting the native victims, and the imPorts he hurt and attacked, I'm terribly sorry for what has happened. And the person who triggered that whole mayhem- [ sasaki isn't going to say the name; he knows who it is ] We are going to talk.
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And how do you figure that?
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A river constantly changes. You never step in the same waters twice, it moves over time, and even if one source dries up another can replace it. The source of the river is not the river, and even as it changes it's still the same river.
I think a person is like a river. You aren't the atoms in your body or your memories; you're the ongoing process of being you.
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But me existing wasn't "on going". I suddenly showed up inside a prison cell. That's all. I took over his body and started living my life as if Kaneki wasn't there - except that he is. [ literally, he is inside sasaki's head ]
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You're a continuation of him; even if you've started a new life, you're still the ongoing process that started with Kaneki, not a new one. But I suppose we'll have to agree to disagree? I'm not going to change my mind, and I've had my fill of philosophy for today.
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Sasaki shakes his head ] We'll agree to disagree, Chie-san.