Entry #004 | Video

[quaerit]

[ Here is Gansey, looking a little strange. He’s wearing a navy-blue sweater emblazoned with a raven – an Aglionby school sweater, over what appears to be ordinary clothes. His shoulders and hair are damp, like he’s been rained on, and he looks strangely pale. Despite that, he’s displaying a welcoming smile, and his hazel eyes are bright and vital with some emotion he’s holding back. ]

Apparently, I vanished yesterday.

I say apparently because it feels more like several weeks ago, but according to this – [ he holds up one of De Chima’s daily newspapers – a tabloid, headlined with speculation about the upcoming import elections ] – it’s only been a day.

A lot can happen in a day. Sometimes things that give you perspective.

Can I ask – the school year is almost over. Some of you will be graduating. I will. Which is odd, because I was here for eight months, and then I went home and it was Fall again, and Senior year was just beginning. I’m not completely sure what age I am now. I turned eighteen a couple of months ago.

[ Which, he actually never mentioned. It had seemed like there were more important things to be getting along with, and the thought of getting older in the wrong world had annoyed Gansey anyway. He’d kept quiet. Now, if he could do that over again, he thinks he’d celebrate it more – even though he’s only mentioning it now because it’s relevant to this. ]

Then I go home, and I’m seventeen again, so now I don’t even know what counts. Graduation will, though, I know that much.

So: to everyone else who’s graduating. Or even if you’re not, even if it’s just that you see change coming for you. What are your plans? Will you work, will you travel? What would you like to do, ideally? I think I’m ready for it to be summer again.

Private to: Billy Kaplan, Adam Parrish, Ronan Lynch, Noah Czerny, Matthew Lynch

[ This part goes to everyone’s private inboxes. Gansey’s smile is less presidential here, but his eyes are even sharper. He seems energized, like he’s on the edge of something. His voice is trying not to sound like it. ]

Hey, everyone. I very much hope I didn’t worry you. I think I was mid-conversation with you, Billy. I’ll have to blame my rudeness on the Porter.

Listen, I’m on my way home. Could someone bring the car and pick me up? I’m getting pizza from that Italian place near the porter in De Chima. I’m absolutely famished.

I’d…like to know if anyone else vanished, too. Ronan, Adam?

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[aberth]

[ He gives a short bark of a laugh, shaking his head somewhat fondly. Because of course. Gansey's a little right though, biking is getting tiresome now they're out of the city and on the rare days that he can't rely on a ride it's like he's lost the tolerance for it. And it takes him too long to get around, meaning moments like these are delayed.

He hadn't been able to believe it, not until he could confirm that Gansey was solid and real and actually here. ]

It's not your fault. [ They both know that. People come and go. They're always losing someone to the Porter. He just never wanted it to be Gansey. He hopes it never happens again. Twenty-four hours had been far too long. Adam's eyes move fitfully over his friend's face as though trying to look for any glaring differences, anything he should be concerned with. He'd been so worried that the very thing they'd been trying to avoid would take Gansey while he was stuck here. But he definitely looks very much alive. ] You okay?

[quaerit]

[ No scratches on his face. No marks on his wrists where they’d had to tie him, no indication that Adam’s been through what the demon had done to him. It’s the same with Ronan. Gansey had known it would be the same.

But it’s so strange to see. He’d been with them such a short time ago. And he knows it was them who had saved him. Adam’s idea. It would have to have been. He’s the only one who would’ve been able to keep his head enough to do it. ]

I’m…

[ Alive. Whole, when I thought I wouldn’t be. Christ, how can he say that? Gansey is not a person who’d ever wanted to think about his future. Especially when it held so much pain. And this last week has held a lot of pain, so much more than he wants to put on Adam’s shoulders. ]

Yes. I’m fine, it’s all right. School’s as it ever was. Oh, I almost lost all sense of myself on Raven Day and Henry Cheng saved me. He’s been around quite a bit.

[ He takes a breath. ]

I’m glad to see you.

[aberth]

[ His eyebrows lift a little more obviously when Gansey mentions Henry Cheng, but he makes little comment on it. His friend has always run a little wider in the Aglionby circles, and besides, Adam is too relieved right now to worry about whether or not he should be jealous. ]

I forgot Raven Day was coming.

[ It's been a while. He's forgetting more and more of where he's supposed to be in Henrietta, timeline wise. ] But that's good.

[ He has so many questions. He doesn't know where to start. ]

[quaerit]

We were ushers.

[ On Raven Day, he means. He shifts a little, remembering it. It's a safe thing to remember. It had been at the start of all the trouble, before any of them had really known what was going on.

Before their lives had become a horror movie. Just before. ]

Do you know it was Noah's idea?

No, of course you don't, it surprised both of us. Well, it was, when he was alive. His sister was there. Gave a speech.

Strange thing.

[aberth]

Seriously?

[ He looks thoughtful for a long moment before his mouth twitches slightly upwards. ] Makes sense. Mayhem would have definitely been Noah's bag.

[ From what Adam knows of him anyway. ]

Did he get to see it?

[quaerit]

[ Gansey's well-maintained smile falters a little at that. ]

No. He hasn't been around that much. Things have been changing quite rapidly.

[ Gansey has taken Henry's Aglionby sweater off by now, and folded it on top of his bed. In fact, he's changed all his clothes, and showered. It feels better to get the remnants of that night away from him. ]

It's only been around a week since Malory left. I can tell you, it doesn't feel like it.