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Playmaker-san asked a good question about if our powers defined us. It's something I've been thinking about lately.

What if you have a power that goes against even your biology?

If it changes something about you that's always been a requirement?

As a Ghoul, I've always had to eat humans to live. There's no other way, it's how Ghouls are. How our bodies work.

But...the Porter has made it so I can eat human food now.

Before it made me sick. It tasted horrible. But now it's good, it doesn't make me weaker to eat it. If I can eat human food to live now, instead of humans...

Does that change who I am? Does it change what I am?

I have always been a Ghoul. I don't know how to be anything else.

[ 'i don't know if i want to be anything else' goes unsaid, but it's there.

thanks for the existential crisis, kidou. ]

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[missleadingquestions]

I don't think your powers define you in the first place.
My sister was one of the strongest mediums I knew, but she changed her goals and did what she wanted to do, even though it had nothing to do with her powers at all...

You can be whatever you want

and

probably a lot easier, without eating people.

[look she couldn't just NOT ADDRESS the people eating part]

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[leaflets]

I like that idea, that I can be whatever I want. Here, at least.

But does that mean I'd completely abandon who I always have been?

[ She doesn't even know if she's making sense right now, tbh. Hinami tends to avoid deep thinking. She knows she's been so sheltered that her views are a little strange, on top of...well, how different Ghouls can be from humans. ]

I'm not a Ghoul because it's a power. I'm a Ghoul because Mom was one and Dad was one, because that's my species. Is it an insult to them to be something else now?

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[missleadingquestions]

That seems a little grave... but nothing about you could change that your parents were your parents. And no one can control the porters...

So it can't be an insult to do the best with what you have, right?

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[tacticianing]

[He feels a little bit of obligation to this, (and an immense desire to help encourage not eating humans), plus he's gotten a little bit of insight from that last post as well. He'll be Kidou this time.]

Every human ImPort here has at least one attribute that humans here cannot possibly have. Sometimes... it's something that should be fatal.

Does that make us not human?

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[leaflets]

I don't think it does.

It's jut so confusing, that it's changed how my body works.

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[tacticianing]

I suppose it would be.

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[dirtyredneck]

It changes your options. Who you are is up to you.

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[leaflets]

I just want to be myself.

[ and that's why this is so confusing.

if something has been changed at a fundamental, biological level...is she changed? ]

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[dirtyredneck]

Then do that. Choosing to eat something that ain't other people isn't going to change who you are.

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[inuko]

[ ah... what can Shino say, when he's hardly innocent of this himself? Yeah, it's Murasame's trade off and his intentions, but when he's only alive because of the demon he hosts, and that demon keeps him alive at a cost that includes taking the lives of others when Shino's life is taken...

Nevermind that. It's the rest that he looks at, propping his chin up on one hand before tapping out a reply. ]

Is it so bad to be yourself? Or who or what you identify yourself to be? I would say what you are outwardly, or the things you can do now that you couldn't do before, have those things made you decide you are no longer [ he types human, knowing that's the wrong word, since she just said she's a "Ghoul." Erasing and writing that in, it's... a complicated sentiment. ] Ghoul?

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[leaflets]

I really don't know. Before I knew something had changed, I still considered myself a Ghoul.

But if even my body works differently now...it's really confusing.

[inuko]

Let me rephrase... you are Ghoul. You've been changed by this place, so you can do something that you could not do before. Isn't that most people here? They're not inherently no longer who they were. They're different, but that's not the same as leaving behind everything you used to be.

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[amadaman]

I'm not a Ghoul so I can't fully understand.

But I don't believe a sudden change like this is going to undo everything you've been through, where you came from, or who you are.

If you think you're a Ghoul you're a Ghoul. You're just going to starve less now.

text; lmfao thanks to maya this post went from serious to hinami just going WHYYYY

[leaflets]

[ hinami's starting to notice the trend. not in a bad way, but...it really is hard for humans to understand why the change would be something that brings apprehension and concern.

she's happy about it too, but it brings up a lot of questions. ]

You say starve less, but

Ken-chan there's so many options just for dessert.

How do humans ever eat anything with so many choices?

[ except she's really stuck in Bewildered Mode at the moment. ]

[amadaman]

[Look man Ken's never had to face any diet restrictions except when he was stuck surviving off of convenience store food for a year because he can't cook.]

Well sometimes we're limited by things like allergies and digestive problems and also budgets.

I lived off 130 yen pudding from the local convenience store for two years because I had to pay for things like commuting to school so idk

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[starlinings]

Perhaps that's not the best way to think of it, Hinami-chan.

Humans have quite an expansive choice of foods, and they can choose what they can or can't eat.

But they're all still humans, aren't they?


Maybe you're the first to experience this freedom as a Ghoul. ★

A step forward for your kind isn't such a bad thing, is it?

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[leaflets]

[ graaaaan. if there's anyone that can relate on the not-human scale of things, it's gran. ]

Mm. What everyone is saying makes sense.

I don't really know how to word it, but... it's like... I never felt any different before I knew...but my body was changed and that... that's weird. IT shouldn't have been possible, and it's really confusing.

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[starlinings]

Any kind of change like that can be very confusing.

But in the end, I think it's up to you to decide what a Ghoul is. You'll always be one to me, Hinami-chan, if that's what you feel most comfortable being.


You're just a Ghoul who I can now buy cookies for.

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[thelimitdoesnotexist]

[Honestly, this question is one of those questions that hung over his head.]

are you asking if personality is tied to your biological nature?

nature is something uncontrollable. those that try to control nature...they often find their ruin.

you should not live in fear because of your nature. what you do because nature dictates is not your responsibility. and those who try to hold you to responsiblity are ignorant.

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[leaflets]

That's comforting to hear, a little bit.

This power is something that changes something important to what I am...so it's very confusing.

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[classification]

[ In a sense he can understand most of this. He's done a lot of things that he knows he shouldn't have done, he's been a person he didn't even really want to be, but wound up being because he thought it was right. When he first got here, he went through this kind of crisis, too. So. He gets it. ]

It isn't easy trying to train yourself but it is something everyone is capable of. I have been a soldier all my life and it is difficult to be here and make play at being something else. It can be done, but effort is required.

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[leaflets]

I wonder if because I can do it, if I have an obligation.

[classification]

An obligation to what?

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[hisheartsdesire]

I've given these questions some thought before.
And they've come up again only recently.
Having gone to prison here for a couple months, I've had my powers nulled.
For that time, I was effectively human.
Which was something I didn't remember much about, since I'd changed so very long ago.
I guess that what really matters is you try things out.
Find out what works for you now that a new world has been opened to you.

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[leaflets]

I do want to try, at least.

I don't think it's a bad change at all. I guess...it's not something I ever thought could happen, though I did wonder.