anon text - blocked from matt WHAT TIME IS IT?? RELATIONSHIP DRAMA TIME

[h2no]

what do u do when u fuck up so bad u hurt the person you love??? and they might not come back to u and things might not be the same ever again
like htheyll still talk 2 you but u know its the [mamoswine?? no that'll give him away... what the hell are they normally called??] large animal in the room that ur not even smart enough to talk abt properly
and that mayb talking inst the way forward

this is very self pitying and dumb I KNOW but im at wits end here fellow imports
i dont know what ill do i f i loose em forever

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[h2no]

that's the long and short of it
dont get me wrong im not trying to deny his agency
but
stuff happened before all this that i might've used to convince him to believe in what i was doing
maybe he wouldn't have done it if i hadnt done that
maybe he'd have his own life

[heisenbitch]

And so instead of acknowledging any of this, you bailed on him

[h2no]

yes

[heisenbitch]

Not gonna lie, you're pretty screwed if you ask me

[h2no]

thought as much
i wanted to know if there was something i wasnt doing
consensus seems to be back off and accept that he'll probably never come back

[heisenbitch]

Probably
Sometimes you just gotta accept you're the bad guy that's done really unforgivable shit and deal with it
Speaking from experience

[h2no]

yeah
i thought i could try and make this one thing right
i really dont know how to even start trying to atone

[heisenbitch]

Make sure he's looked after
But don't make it about you
Do it anonymously

[h2no]

im trying to
like ignorign this lost lenore bullshit
im trying to make sure he is
i think hed know its me

[heisenbitch]

Back home something bad happened to someone I care about
Wasn't something I did personally but I felt completely responsible for it
There was nothing I could do to fix the situation or to make things better
I also couldnt just walk away and leave her suffering without doing something to put things right
I gave her money to get herself and her kid outta where they were so they could be safe and have a better life
She figured out fast that the money was coming from me. I didn't lie when she confronted me about it.
Told her straight why I was giving her money, what the money was for
Also told her that it was up to her whether she used the money to give her son and herself a better life or if she spent it all on drugs. Wasn't my place to tell her the choices she should be making
Just told her that I had to believe she wouldn't do that
She went and got a nice place in a nice neighborhood. She got away from that life. Her kid is safe.
Doesn't fix what happened but at least they can move on with a life they deserve
Different situation, different issues, I know. My point is, there are ways to put things right if you know what he needs and what he deserves. Let him do with that whatever he wants
If he throws it back in your face, let him. That's what you deserve if he does.

[h2no]

that was really good of you
i'm glad she's managed to find somewhere safe with her kid
i see what you mean now
i'll have a think about what i could try and do
thanks for the advice