text. anonymous.

[flightforfreedom]

[ He's thankful that one of the things BB-8 gave him before he was taken away again was an encrypted anonymous lock on his comm. It's not even that this is something he particularly wants to be anonymous for so much as it just... makes things a little easier to talk about. ]

this month, two of my best friends here had their one year wedding anniversary
living with their adopted son
a family that only could have existed on this planet


sometimes it's hard to see the little victories for what they are
more important than anything else


so tell me what keeps you going here

what are the things that this place gives you that you never would have gotten a chance for at home

the people that keep you getting up in the morning





we're all in this together and sometimes it takes a lot to remember that

Comments

[flightforfreedom]

stopping is never an option
whether here or not

yeah it’d be nice if this place would take a break once in a damn millennia but still


the people i love getting to have things - have opportunities to do things - that they never would have gotten otherwise

watching them get second chances or entirely new lives

[hatejakku]

thats nice
there are a lot of people that deserve this place
or the place this could be, i mean, if the planet would slow down for a minute



what about the ones that deserve a second chance and don't get it
the people we left back home
or elsewhere
are we just supposed to focus on the good parts or what

[flightforfreedom]

i think there's enough bad parts to want to focus on the good parts, right?

there are billions of people who deserve a second chance and don't get it

does that mean it isn't worth it for some people to get it

[hatejakku]

no no i didnt mean it like that im not saying that a lot of people here dont deserve this

i just cant help but feel guilty about it the longer im here

thats all

[flightforfreedom]

i mean i get it
trust me

but don't

you don't have any control over you being here
and you don't have any control over other people being here

don't feel guilty for shit you can't do anything about

[ Says the pot to the kettle. ]

[hatejakku]

its not like i enjoy it
not really something i can turn off



and why not, right?
its better than taking all of this for granted

[flightforfreedom]

i don't think any of us could really take it for granted

no matter how long we're here it still feels fragile


there's got to be a way to overcome guilt

though heh

i'll let you know when i figure it out

[hatejakku]

sorry

[ He types up more several times but doesn't know what else to add and leaves it at that. ]

[flightforfreedom]

for what?

you’ve got nothing to apologize for

all i’m saying is that i get it

[hatejakku]

for bringing it up
for you going through it too
for this whole damn place being a balance between pretty good and really bad

youre trying to find something positive here and im doing the opposite by going on about how its not enough but it is
it has to be



i dont know what keeps me going here but i know that if i didn't have the people i have now then i have no idea how i could do it