first clover → video;
Sep. 10th, 2016 01:23 am[ hinami's only been back for a day or two, and already her head is swarming.
her nature as a Ghoul had been outed by Kane-- Sasaki upon her being ported out, and that's...that's something she feels she's needs to address. to talk about in her own words and may explain a little.
there's been low-lying panic since Sasaki had told her.
of course there was, because she'd spent the last fourteen (fifteen? she'd had a birthday before she left, but she came back from the same period of time...) years knowing that humans knowing what she was was a death sentence.
addressing it herself isn't so much damage control as...catharsis, maybe. ]
Onii-chan...You might know him as Sasaki...he told me that after I left he revealed to everyone that I'm a Ghoul. We...weren't trying to lie about it. Just not mention it, I guess. To be careful. I don't want anyone who knew me...I don't want anyone to feel like I lied, or was trying to trick them.
It's true that humans are the only thing we can eat, but...I've only ever eaten humans who have died. [ not 100% true, but she's not going out Ken or herself for the entire shoulder-eating debacle. ] I don't want to hurt anyone.
At home...In our world...the worst thing you can be is a Ghoul. If you're found out, even if you've never done anything to hurt anyone, even if you're a kid or just trying to live peacefully...you'll be killed. That's why Mom was killed...and Dad too. [ she can't help but choke up a little. even months later, the loss of her parents is painful. ] So not telling anyone was safer, even though no one seemed to care.
I wondered for a while if...if it was really okay for me to be alive, as a Ghoul. If it'd just be better to let the Ghoul Investigators find me, and be with Mom and Dad again.
But I like it here. I can go to school, and have human friends. I can go outside everyday and not have to stay inside and hide.
[ she's rambling, Hinami knows she's rambling, but it's like a weight off her chest and it's hard to stop. ]
When Mom died...she told me to live. So that's...that's what I'm doing. And I'll do that here for as long as I can.
her nature as a Ghoul had been outed by Kane-- Sasaki upon her being ported out, and that's...that's something she feels she's needs to address. to talk about in her own words and may explain a little.
there's been low-lying panic since Sasaki had told her.
of course there was, because she'd spent the last fourteen (fifteen? she'd had a birthday before she left, but she came back from the same period of time...) years knowing that humans knowing what she was was a death sentence.
addressing it herself isn't so much damage control as...catharsis, maybe. ]
Onii-chan...You might know him as Sasaki...he told me that after I left he revealed to everyone that I'm a Ghoul. We...weren't trying to lie about it. Just not mention it, I guess. To be careful. I don't want anyone who knew me...I don't want anyone to feel like I lied, or was trying to trick them.
It's true that humans are the only thing we can eat, but...I've only ever eaten humans who have died. [ not 100% true, but she's not going out Ken or herself for the entire shoulder-eating debacle. ] I don't want to hurt anyone.
At home...In our world...the worst thing you can be is a Ghoul. If you're found out, even if you've never done anything to hurt anyone, even if you're a kid or just trying to live peacefully...you'll be killed. That's why Mom was killed...and Dad too. [ she can't help but choke up a little. even months later, the loss of her parents is painful. ] So not telling anyone was safer, even though no one seemed to care.
I wondered for a while if...if it was really okay for me to be alive, as a Ghoul. If it'd just be better to let the Ghoul Investigators find me, and be with Mom and Dad again.
But I like it here. I can go to school, and have human friends. I can go outside everyday and not have to stay inside and hide.
[ she's rambling, Hinami knows she's rambling, but it's like a weight off her chest and it's hard to stop. ]
When Mom died...she told me to live. So that's...that's what I'm doing. And I'll do that here for as long as I can.