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[ Here's Kitty, wearing a smile and giving a little wave to the camera. ]

Hullo. It's Kitty here. I was just thinking about how it's about time for us to get another wave of new people - and then I remembered how last December, we didn't get any, and then I realized that I've now been here for over a year and that was just mad to think about.

It's easy to focus on all the horrid things that happen to us here. Because there are so many horrid things - that's true. The war with the Soviets is just terrible, and sometimes you just want to take the President by his shoulders and shake him until he stops - and those groups that detest us, they've made things a bit hard at times, as well. [ There's a little sideways twist to her lips as she says that; that's a grotesque understatement from a girl who had quite the history with one of those groups that detest us. ]

But it's always easy to remember the bad above the good. That's how the human brain works, isn't it - it's designed to remember hurts so that it can avoid those hurts in the future, which isn't bad, but which means that we sometimes lose track of the fact that there is so much more kindness than cruelty in the world. So I was just sitting and remembering all the good that's come to me over the past year.

Because this year, in this world, it really has been filled with impossible goodness. When I first came here, I was so scared, but there were people who took me in and helped me and protected me until I got a little more courage. And now here I am. I've made so many friends, amongst them someone I thought was my direst enemy. I saw people whom I'd never done any good for - I saw them forgive me when I was cruel and wicked and spiteful towards them, saw them risk themselves to help me and to save me.

And I've lived amongst the people of this world, who have been so good to me. So good. I've made friends amongst them, too. I've been kept on at work when I really have been the worst employee, when I've been unreliable because of my other obligations. And we've been allowed to speak our minds, speak freely. We've been allowed to travel far and wide. We've been supported in everything we do, which is far more kindness than has ever been extended a group of refugees at any time in any world. We've lived at peace. We've lived well.

So -

[ She tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. ]

I'd thought - if I could trouble you all - that we could spend a little bit of time, all together, remembering the good turns that people have done us.

Talk about whomever you'd like. Talk about the people who have been kind and helped us when they didn't have to. Talk about the wealth that is the other people we know here. And I thought we could talk about the natives, too - I was thinking I might put together a little something, a few quotes, that we could pass along to the natives of this world, so that we know that we appreciate them. Let's take some time to overcome our brains, and remember the good - focus on the good and remember how kind the world is to us. How well we live. How strong and brave and honest we can be here.

[ Translation: 'All of this is a somewhat underhanded but well-intentioned PR thing that will let me package some stuff to make the natives less furious at us in an ongoing attempt to avert all-out war between us and this world.' ]

Anyway. There's that, if you can spare some time. Oh, and, erm - come by Krakatoa, while I've got your attention. Best club in town, bar none. And the employees are simply gorgeous.

[ A quick, half-sheepish grin, and then she gives a little nod and waves her way off. ]

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i cant speak to the toby you know
but the toby i know likes to think of himself as harmless despite lacking the resolve to rein his more dangerous instincts
and when made to face consequences for that will make endlessly whinging excuses about how it was by total accident
"oh one more life totally upended my bad!!
its no ones fault!"

i can promise you the only reason he took in natalie had nothing to do with proving how responsible he could be
and everything to do with avoiding what would happen when i found out hed done it again
turning himself in is the first responsible action hes made since his arrival

[ She hesitates a little bit before responding. ]

If he asked to be able to look after them, what would you do, Kanaya? How would you respond?

why do you ask that in a way that supposes he might have any claim to them
would you let a murderer look after his victims because theyve become undead

you have to think of this in its proper context kitty
these arent children
they dont require "looking after" so much as trauma recovery and steady meals
they need to be taught how to manage the new conditions and try to somehow continue their lives
that does need a vampire
but it shouldnt be their sire

What do they want?

what do you think they want
they want to move on

i have to say kitty i honestly expected better than this from you
sympathizing with an import predator over his native victims
if this didnt involve someone you know would you be asking that question
this has nothing to do with what they want
youre only entertaining the thought because its something toby wants and hes lied his way into your graces

Kanaya, I'm asking because I want to understand. I don't know what it's like to be him or to be you or to be any of them. I'm not asking because I want to side with one of you. I'm asking because I just want to understand the whole situation. What it sounds like is that it's completely rotten and miserable for everyone around, and I wish that it were better for literally any one of you but there's no way out from it. It's horrid. I'm sorry.

sorry
the whole thing just has me on edge
ive already been given an earful from the garbage personified that is his boyfriend
and every side has been treating me like the villain in this for months
either for taking them away from him or actually thinking they have some right to survive

im just trying to do the right thing

So why you? Why are you involved?

because i caught him with the first one
but like i said it does need to be another vampire
and we dont really have many others who would care

And how do you know that's the right thing? That's not a 'consider your actions,' that's a 'how do you know, because I've not figured it out.'

helping them survive and keeping their predatory sire away??
what about that could possibly sound like not a right thing

It's taking over someone's life. The lives of several people, even. How can you be certain you're the best one to do it?

youre arguing from ignorance there
tobias is the one who took over their lives
im trying to help them take those lives back

But you're not. There's no going back for them. Everything's different. It's just different, now, in a way that you shape. So how can you be certain you're shaping it right?

because i dont shape it alone
i have influence on it but there are other factors youre discounting
namely themselves
these are not infants that ive become the parent of
i already have that to worry about literally

they are fully grown adults who have suffered a drastic change
but they are still people with their own thoughts decisions and desires
they are active agents in their own lives
what has changed is a facet and its a facet i can help them manage
but aside from now being forcibly nocturnal they are still capable of living among other humans

if there is one thing i can affect
it is that their doing so does not create a danger to others
but also that others do not create a danger for them because of what they are
if that isnt the right shape then i dont think there is one

I suppose.

no you dont
you wouldnt sound so noncommittal if you didnt in some way disagree

It's not disagreement. The stories the two of you are telling are simply so fundamentally dissimilar that I simply don't know how to reconcile them. And your purposes are so completely at odds that it's simply impossible to take any sort of stance that's neutral. Or take any action that's neutral. So all I can do is listen. And feel bewildered.

when one side is a predator whose been deflecting blame for months
of course his story would be dissimilar
he doesnt know anything about how ive approached the situation of his progeny
and not without reason

if you accept that his narrative could be sympathetic instead of manipulative then it may be difficult to reconcile both accounts
he only told you it to begin with because he wants you to take pity on him

He's been very good to me, Kanaya. Quite consistently. I can't simply decide that, no, he's a wretched horrible predator. Especially since - and I don't say this to be cruel - you've got a tendency to portray people you don't like as being completely wretched and irredeemable and worthless.

then get a second opinion
someone who isnt dorian
andrew warner would be a place to start
but im sure there must be others who see him the same way

you cant let the fact that hes been nice and i havent be the only thing to color your perception of the matter
i may not be nice
but i know my priorities

Right, Andrew Warner called him an arsehole and refused to give details, and afterwards I found out that they were sleeping together. That's not BRILLIANT in terms of people who can give good accounts.

Anyway, it's not about him being nice and you being not-nice. It's a matter of accuracy. You've said cruel things about people that I didn't think were accurate, so I'm just a little skittish of your opinions. That's all.

that depends on your definition of cruel
i certainly dont toss about freely the sort of serious accusations i am now

Not quite so serious. No. That's true.

get a second opinion kitty
this isnt coming out of nowhere
ask edgeworth about it i spoke to him a few weeks ago
even sabriel if you have to
(probably not sabriel if you can help it)

[ If only Kanaya knew about Laurie and Sasha, or all the others. ]

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