anon text - blocked from matt WHAT TIME IS IT?? RELATIONSHIP DRAMA TIME

[h2no]

what do u do when u fuck up so bad u hurt the person you love??? and they might not come back to u and things might not be the same ever again
like htheyll still talk 2 you but u know its the [mamoswine?? no that'll give him away... what the hell are they normally called??] large animal in the room that ur not even smart enough to talk abt properly
and that mayb talking inst the way forward

this is very self pitying and dumb I KNOW but im at wits end here fellow imports
i dont know what ill do i f i loose em forever

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[h2no]

someone doesnt have to die for it to be the end of the world
i mean i get that someone dying is WORST CASE EVER
but
he's alive
and hurt because of me

[heisenbitch]

[ Jesse decides to turn this into a PRIVATE conversation locked to just the two of them. ]

What happened?

[h2no]

[archie stays on text, but un-anons. what's the point hiding when jesse is evidently this interested?]

almost ended the world together

[heisenbitch]

Whoa wait Archie? The dude with the bat?

[h2no]

yeah THAT'S ME

[heisenbitch]

Shit man I didn't mean to be insensitive with the end of the world comment
Tho idk what "almost ended the world together" means

[h2no]

its literal
i know it seems like bullshit but
so spoiler alert back home i was the bad guy
i woke up a whale god
and yes i know god sometimes are fake but this one was real trust me it roared in my face it was really angry
and it has control over the sea
because i wanted to raise the sealevels, maybe reset the world to get rid of all the pollution from humans
tl;dr it went batshit and tried to drown everything because wanting something ddoesnt make it happen

he was my right hand man through all this
and i get that he made his own choices
but
buttttttttttt
instead of talking to him about the situation like a fucking normal person i kind of shut down with guilt and basically fucked off

sry for infodump

[heisenbitch]

Um
Okay

[ Can you hear Jesse's bewilderment radiating through your communicator, Archie. ]

[h2no]

[jesse can't see it, but archie actually snorts at that.]

appropriate reaction
i know it sounds utterly crazy and like
some kind of fever dream

anyway, ignore all that, just pretend the actual reason is because we had a crazy bitchfight about politics or something

[heisenbitch]

Bitchfight about politics is kinda wildly different from Moby Dick waterboarding the world

[h2no]

probably easier to parse tho

[heisenbitch]

Context matters tho yo

[h2no]

i mean, whatever is easier for you
we basically both did a really really bad thing, both regret doing that thing
and in the whirlwind of trying to atone and be better people and make up for what we did
it turns out having that kind of disagreement fucks with yuor personal life

[heisenbitch]

Wait ok back up a minute. Just so I'm understanding this right
You woke up some whale shaped god to cause a Noah's ark level flood so you could get rid of all the shit people had done to the planet

[h2no]

yes
though not religiously motivated

[heisenbitch]

So you went maximum Greenpeace genocide on the world's ass and this guy what? Went along with it?

[h2no]

kind of
i didn't actually want to kill anyone
which sounds pathetic now i say it
i know it was a stupid shitty idea and we probably deserve to be miserable but
not him, at least
me, yeah
him, no. it's not fair, he's only like this because i managed to talk him into it

[heisenbitch]

So you're a giant fuck up in other words
It didn't occur to you at the time that people die in floods?
Kids? Innocent people?

[h2no]

yes
and yes
may stopped the ramapage very quickly; we were lucky
so instead of everyone on the planet dying, there was only a heavy rain shower for an hour or so

believe me i know how fucked up it was
i dont know if you've ever gone from insanity to clarity

[heisenbitch]

That's pretty fucking insane yo

[heisenbitch]

But ok look
Sounds like nobody died and sounds like you were a dumbass who thought you were doing a good thing
Super fucked up yo and the fact that you couldve killed a whole bunch of innocent people is really messed up
And I hate to break it to you but just cuz you talked him into it doesn't mean you made him do it
He still chose to do it

[ Just like Jesse chose to do things even when he didn't want to. When Mr. White talked him into it. Because he felt like he had no other choice. Like shooting Gale. Like wasting Krazy-8 and Emilio. Like all the shit he's done that's left him dead and hating himself inside. ]

[h2no]

that's the long and short of it
dont get me wrong im not trying to deny his agency
but
stuff happened before all this that i might've used to convince him to believe in what i was doing
maybe he wouldn't have done it if i hadnt done that
maybe he'd have his own life

[heisenbitch]

And so instead of acknowledging any of this, you bailed on him

[h2no]

yes

[heisenbitch]

Not gonna lie, you're pretty screwed if you ask me