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[photophobic]

[ Kylo's expression is tight, his eyes intensely sharp- and those who have seen him before will note something else, too. His face is scarred- a long, neatly healed line running right over it, from his brow down to his neck. ]

Thankfully, he hasn't taken his clothing off for the occasion. ]

I'm back.

[ That's it. ]

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sometimes you just gotta air the family dirty laundry, that's how it goes

[flightforfreedom]

yeah.

[There's a very, very, very long pause before he sends the following:]

look

i know how luke feels about
second chances
here

and i have been doing my utmost to stay on board with that

but

[However, whatever he was going to say as a 'but' just doesn't come. Poe is typing appears a few more times, but no more words.]

skywalkers man don't ever befriend them

[articulations]

But what?

I see you typing on and off. Is there more you want to say?

look, poe was doomed to be tangled up in this from when he was two. he knows the score

[flightforfreedom]

just

be careful


i can't figure out what the hell he's trying to do with this

dammit shara

[articulations]

He wants to exist here. Without the war. Without the opposing sides.

I admit it's a hard thing to wrap my head around. He's an Imperial to me because of the side he chose. But he's also my son.

Somehow we wronged him, Han and I, when he was young. Part of me wants to fix that.

What you're telling me is that he could turn on me, is that it? Do you honestly believe he would hurt me?

mom don't take his other mom's name in vain please

[flightforfreedom]

[Yeah of course he could hurt you, he killed his own father, what the hell else am I supposed to expect from him.

He doesn't send it.

It's a while before he replies, and when he does it all comes in a rush. (He might have learnt his lesson and typed up his reply somewhere else and then copied and pasted it so that she couldn't call him on it.)]

i'm saying he's completely unpredictable and dangerous

and i know

that you want to hold out hope for him

i know

but he's not

if he cares about what happens to you, it's because it helps him in some way
if he wants to start a new life here without the war it's because he's getting something out of it

no matter what you did

he stood on the bridge of the starkiller as it slaughtered billions of innocent people

he can think what he wants but this was never about sides. you've met finn. and you've met bodhi. and they were both on the other 'side', and i couldn't possibly trust two men more

even here i've met imperials that i consider good men

but nothing

literally nothing

that you or han could have ever possibly done

would be enough to justify starkiller.

ever.

sorry sorry rest her soul

[articulations]

Would things be any different if he hadn't stood on the bridge of Starkiller?

I know he's dangerous. I know he's unpredictable. But I also know he won't hurt me.

I'm not sure yet what he could possibly get out of caring for me, it seems to only offer him nothing but pain and suffering.

He came to me Poe, before he disappeared. I mean, we spoke, he reached out. I went to him and we had talked. I need to keep an open mind to him the same as I do with Anakin.

He wants to see me. Right now. Let me speak with him a little more. If you don't hear back from me in 24 hours, well, I hope it won't get to that.

[flightforfreedom]

between him and i? no. he proved to me what he was long before that. but you might have still found a way to reach him.

be careful.

good luck.

[articulations]

[ There's no reply. It doesn't come for a long while, when it does. Well into the night. She might be interrupting his sleep or he might be up, who knows. Or he'll wake up to a message from her. ]

He's gone.

[ It'd taken her so long to go to her comm once Kylo had left; sleep doesn't seem like it's going to happen, not tonight. ]

[flightforfreedom]

[Yeah, guess who 100% didn't sleep and spent most of the night pacing? This guy. He lets out a long breath when he finally gets a message.

There are a lot of questions he could ask. He doesn't.]

you okay?

[articulations]

[ What does she say to that? She'd told Han to not come over. Was she purposefully looking for space? Was she running from the truth? ]

Honestly. No.

I'm considering going for a very long walk.

[flightforfreedom]

[Well. He's not surprised, exactly, but it's still somehow not what he wanted to hear.

He considers several different things to say - 'I'm sorry' chief among them. But honestly? It's not his place. He knows that.

And yet.]







want to go for a long flight, instead?

[articulations]

that won't help. I need to keep busy. Do something.

A walk. A run. I need to get out of this house.

[ And she's already on the move, locking the door behind her, breathing in the crisp night air. ]

[flightforfreedom]

i mean

there's always the gym if you just want to hit things for a while

you want company?
or should i just check back in later.

[articulations]

[ She sends him her coordinates, but she's still walking, her pace picking up into a brisk walk. ]

if you want

[flightforfreedom]

[to action.]