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[ It's dark -- mostly because it's late, but there aren't an excess of lights on, either -- though Reggie's face is faintly illuminated by the light of his communicator screen and also something off-screen that might be a TV or bedside light. Either way, he's recognizable enough, and though he's smirking faintly his expression is otherwise somewhat blank.

He's been staying out of most of the current drama as best as any survival-oriented, cowardly narcissist can, which is pretty damn well. All things considered. Basically he hasn't been leaving the house if he can avoid it, for which has his reasons. ]

So, all right. Hear me out. Anyone else ever noticed how once you're here, you have to just start believin' in everything? Like that any kinda crap is possible and you just gotta get used to it... after a while you don't even have to think about it anymore. [ Which is, you know, nice. In his opinion. ] Nice thing about that is not having to worry so much about whatever happens, I think. No matter how bad things have gotten here, it's never been the end of the world.

... Well, not yet. [ And his brow crinkles at that, but only briefly. ] Kinda makes you think, huh? Like what's the best way to take advantage of being stuck in some world that actually takes okay care of us? Don't even bother arguing with me about that part, it's true and everyone oughta know it. We get a lot of free, fake time to kill being here, so I say it should be obvious: we can do whatever we can't do back where we came from. Anyway, what I actually wanna know is--

Anyone here made a bucket list yet?

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I'm not one of those kind of people, thank goodness. Id rather just do whats right for me

too much responsibility otherwise. I'd hate to be the guy whose fault it was if something goes bad

So it's better to let things be bad than try to improve them just because you might not succeed?

I know how to pick my battles, thats all I'm saying. "die trying" is a lousy motto.

Better than 'die not trying.'

actually it isnt better because if ur not trying, ur not failing either. thatd be a crappy legacy.

Oh, yeah, SO much better to die with the last thought in your head being, 'Oh, but what if...?' No, thank you VERY much! I've been eye-to-eye with death more than once myself, and I can tell you that you feel FAR better about it if you gave it your all than if you just sat down quietly and tried not to be noticed. And if you're worried about legacy...How many people have you heard of who never succeeded OR failed? Not one, that's certain.

look, I dont CARE. I dont care about them. I dont care about what happens to anyone else. the only way I'll feel better is by avoiding all that crap altogether. dying is the last thing I want to be thinking about, period.

u can succeed or fail without it having anything to do with changing the world. people do it all the time.

You KNOW you're going to die eventually, don't you?

but not anytime soon. as long as "eventually" wont be my problem for a few decades or so I'm pretty fine with that. why should I worry about all that now?

Because it'll be coming soon enough. Plus, you THINK it won't be your problem for a few decades, but really, you very well MIGHT die tomorrow.

shut up

shut the hell up

u have no way of knowing that so dont go acting like u do, I am NOT. speak for urself, since obviously u got some kind of death-wish.

No, what I've GOT is a realistic outlook. People die. ALL the bloody time. Disease or accident or malice or war or just old age, everyone dies, and a lot of the time it's not when they're old. You can die from tripping and falling and smashing your face on the sidewalk, can't you. It happened to someone down the street from me once, he was pissed and broke his face open and died. It HAPPENS. So what's the point of running and hiding from it? It's FAR better to live well, NOT afraid, take risks, LAUGH at the possibility of death, and do EXACTLY what you want to do.

first of all this isnt the "real world," all that matters even less here. people say we come back even if we do die and whatever happens its not like what goes on here matters in the long run anyway

so yeah, I WILL do exactly what I want to do because what else are we supposed to do? and that happens to involve not getting invested in some complicated future

What happens here doesn't matter, you say?

not the way real life matters.

You ARE aware that there are BILLIONS OF BLOODY PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET for whom this IS their real life, right?

I mean for ME. all of US. we're not gonna be here forever and we might as well accept it

Yeah? Well, if that's true - and I think that's a really short-sighted way of thinking, since you can't be completely sure - I'd say the best way to accept it is by learning to be EFFECTIVE with our time. That means making life better for the people who will be here forever, and who can die.

u can do that

me, I dont care about them

UGH. People like you FRUSTRATE ME. The only way you 'don't care' about other people is if you have something SERIOUSLY wrong with you, SERIOUSLY wrong, and since only a TINY fraction of the population is like that it's FAR more likely that you DO care but are blocking yourself from feeling it. And that's total rubbish. If you didn't shut yourself off from sympathy and kindness, YOU'D be happier and THEY'D be better off.

well people like u frustrate ME because u cant just let it GO, how do u know I'm NOT happier BECAUSE of that

if it works why the hell not do it?

Because it DOESN'T work. Closing your eyes to what others need eats you from the inside out. It seems easier at that moment, yeah, definitely. But the longer you go watching people who need you and doing nothing, the hollower and sicker you get. Believe me, I spent most of my life doing as I ought to have done and keeping my head down, and when I stopped, that's when I felt much better. Not that I ended up helping in the right way, but that's just my point, isn't it, that you feel better regardless of how you help.

says u, I feel great

what works for u isnt going to work for everyone, okay. and these people are all FINE without my help ANYWAY

No, what works for me isn't going to work for everyone, that's true, but there's a great bloody gap between 'I take my tea with milk and two sugars' and 'There's satisfaction in making things better for people.' The first one is just a personal preference, yeah. The second one is literally programmed into every single human brain. And they are NOT fine, you need to LOOK AROUND. There are SO MANY of them who have been killed or hurt or had their livelihoods threatened. Or who are scared, now, because war's probably coming and we're not helping that.

theyre hardly in much worse shape than we are, and as the guests here I think we're entitled to sit out the draft if we feel like it. we dont owe them anything just for being here. and even if we DID I aint going out of my way for a bunch of strangers.

its not worth it even if I know ur gonna argue with me that it is

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text | I'm sorry for the delay, had to take a sudden hiatus!

text | it's okay i'm on hiatus myself shhhh

text | *blares airhorn*

text | sssshhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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text | runs in slow motion away from blaring alarms, etc.

text | wait come back :(

text | good thing I didn't get too far because of slow-motion

text | well that two feet feels like miles okay

text | falls backwards into your arms

text | falls backwards into your arms

text | strokes your forelock

text | just how i like it

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text | blares airhorn