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[glowsferatu]

hope can be such a fickle thing

ive lived my life without it for years and it chooses now of all times to barrel its way back in
but none of that makes it fit in the environment
its only like an ice cube trying to enjoy a summers day

even when im staring at it in front of me i cant seem to conquer the idea that it isnt mine
that im not the one who gets a happy ending its only being borrowed from someone else
another me from another timeline who things progressed more happily for
another me who could look at this and actually feel like shes earned it

i dont know what to do with this feeling
except to know its made a fool of me

[ She includes a photo taken on her desk, some weird black ball covered in candy corn spikes. Is it a Halloween decoration? ]

im going to be a mother after all

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[glowsferatu]

not to say that my morals are weak
but they are
more severe than most humans

[resipiscent]

That's okay. It's all right for you, being what a human would consider an alien.

[He doesn't really, considering he's met a lot of non-humans, but compared to the population of this planet, she definitely is.]

[glowsferatu]

[ She appreciates the qualification, it acknowledges how subjective the term is, something that's always bothered her about it. ]

its alright with me of course
unfortunately theres a whole world of people i would consider aliens here who would disagree

[resipiscent]

[Well, he's imagining how frustrating it is. But for Riku, one of his best friends is a talking mouse, so he has no right to call anybody an alien.]

Well, it's fine if they are to you. That's just what comes with the territory, I guess. But... honestly, I think you can ignore them.

[glowsferatu]

some of those aliens make and enforce laws that contradict my morals
so no
not really

[ It's a rough life, feeling that murder is perfectly justified in certain contexts. ]

[resipiscent]

[It strikes him that this hadn't even occured to him. Human-passing privilege.]

Oh, for real? That's a shame.

[He's just not going to ask what they are, though, because something tells him he doesn't want to know.]

[glowsferatu]

[ It's more about culture than appearance, thoughts and actions, the only way to pass is not to talk about it. Not unlike right now. ]

well its not that unexpected
its a very different world than i was raised in

[resipiscent]

Yeah. I guess you guys probably have different ideas about stuff than humans do. Though I guess when you get down to it everybody has different ideas...

[He's thinking about this too hard.]

[glowsferatu]

well thats just the thing
theres really no such thing as normal for anyone
everyone will have their own conflicting definition of the concept

[resipiscent]

Yeah.

I... kind of like that, though. I mean, it causes trouble, too, but... it's really cool.

[glowsferatu]

well the world would be a terribly bland place otherwise wouldnt it
it gives us all a little flavor

[resipiscent]

Yeah. I think I have this discussion a lot, but... I like it this way better.

[glowsferatu]

it isnt often safe
but it keeps things interesting

[resipiscent]

Yeah.

I don't think you have anything to worry about with your egg, though, Kanaya. You'll do fine when it hatches.

[glowsferatu]

i appreciate your confidence riku
most days i may even manage to echo it

[resipiscent]

Hah, well, that's a start. I just figure... you've got the right personality for it.

[glowsferatu]

that isnt by accident
i was hatched for this

[resipiscent]

All the more reason to think you'll be fine, then.