maskormenace | 010 ♍ text ♍ locked from norman osborn, hazel lockwood

010 ♍ text ♍ locked from norman osborn, hazel lockwood

hope can be such a fickle thing

ive lived my life without it for years and it chooses now of all times to barrel its way back in
but none of that makes it fit in the environment
its only like an ice cube trying to enjoy a summers day

even when im staring at it in front of me i cant seem to conquer the idea that it isnt mine
that im not the one who gets a happy ending its only being borrowed from someone else
another me from another timeline who things progressed more happily for
another me who could look at this and actually feel like shes earned it

i dont know what to do with this feeling
except to know its made a fool of me

[ She includes a photo taken on her desk, some weird black ball covered in candy corn spikes. Is it a Halloween decoration? ]

im going to be a mother after all

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have i been waiting long
only my entire life
certain tasks we were born for and we will remain unfulfilled until they can be accomplished
this is the very reason i was hatched to begin with

this has something 2 do with the hierarchy in ur planet?

that boy, eridan, he spoke a lot about it when i met him, even after his loss. ♠

depending on ur blood was it? is that wat green means?

[ And now it's spades, in possibly the worst place. Don't talk about Eridan and then drop a spade, Hisoka! That's just insulting. ]

in a way yes
my particular green at least
in our society we played the part of midwives for lack of a better word
but my task was particularly unique in preparation for our impending destruction
i would have to reestablish the brooding dens before i can serve them

[Considering he knows better- yeah it's a little insulting. Just a lack of caring on his part.]

were u fine with a role like that?

[ So rude. ]

its what i was hatched for
i mean yes it could be said that i was socialized to be okay with it as a consequence of being prepared for it
but it was my job and it was an important one
its what was needed of me

[Hey, you've been here, what, ten years? You're assimilated enough not to make a stink about it. Good for you.]

ur fine with it because its what they wanted u 2 do? would u say its part of who u r, or part of who u were made 2 b?

i wonder what u would be now, left 2 ur own choices. ♣

[ Well definitely not an auspistice, stray club, she's rarely done that just because she wanted to. ]

ive spent nearly five years left to my own devices
and in that time ive had very little idea what to do with myself
anything ive come up with was merely a placeholder

what i have now is what ive always wanted
maybe its what i was made to want and maybe its what i really want
but personally the line is too broad for me to think it cant be both

theres nothing wrong with that rly, i was just being curious.

- A -

is that another typeface
im not quite sure what its conveying

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