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( HI guys. This is Sarissa. Last time she was on the network she was wearing a ridiculous shirt and was even more ridiculously drunk, a shenanigan that involved yelling at people about art and being excessively poetic. It was a mess.

Now here is Sarissa, looking a lot more serious. Her hair is pulled back into a messy bun, is wearing a dark charcoal button down, and is entirely sober. )

Uh— hi. I’m Sarissa Theron. A few of you have already had the misfortune of speaking to me, in person or on here. Usually I’m pretty obnoxious, so—

( She frowns, and pauses. No, deflecting won’t work for this, and she rolls her shoulders to get herself to focus. )

Some of you might have heard by now that I was murdered. Twice, actually. The first time was just after Thanksgiving and the second time was at the tail end of that blackout we was all in a fluster about. I lied the first time around and said I didn’t know who killed me, because…

( Her gaze drops, for a moment. ) I was scared, mostly. Thought I was protecting the people I cared about, and I thought silence was the only way to do it, because the person I was protecting them from was - is - invulnerable. That kind of backfired, but. So— here I am.

His name is Sylar, but some of you might’ve met him as Gabriel Gray. He has a kind of… hunger, or an obsession, I guess, with collecting powers. That was why he killed me the first time around, so he could take a power of mine.

( She exhales, slowly, working herself up to the next bit. ) To be perfectly clear, he’s a fuckhead and he tried to hurt people I care about to make a game outta our lives. But I think— I think despite my visceral feelings about it, what’s more important than trying to take him apart is trying to get him help. Justice, obviously, he needs to take responsibility for what he did, but just— if you find him, and if you’re able to contain someone like him, don’t hurt him or... be shit, basically. Something happened, maybe, to make him how he is and vengeance and all that aren’t gonna help him get better, they’ll just give him more rage to run on. I figure enough of us around these parts are from heaps messed up worlds or have seen messed up shit to know what that’s like, in some way.

Anyway. I’m sorry I didn’t come out and say it sooner. If you have questions or that, I’ll answer them as good as I can.

( ooc: Sylar stuff is public knowledge as of the Majority report if you want your character to be a bit familiar with it. )

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I mean-- I had control of not telling people. Even with him holding my sisters over me, I had control of that. People said they'd help me, and I just--

( Her mouth twists for a second, and she looks down.)

You were afraid to get people involved, maybe?

Yeah. Still got people involved regardless, but. He screwed with my family.

And that makes you feel guilty.

Of course it makes me feel bloody guilty. ( Normally that would've come with an escalation in volume, but Sarissa is trying really, really hard to keep that in check, though her jaw is visibly clenched. ) I spent all that time trying to keep it secret so he wouldn't hurt anyone. I thought we had a deal, I keep my mouth shut and he doesn't touch anyone. But he took my sisters and Clara, and he nearly bloody killed them. And what— what would've stopped him from doing to someone else what he did to me? It stupid, Kitty. It was so stupid.

[ Kitty hesitates a moment, clearly debating something internally. Then she gives a short nod - clearly to herself, as though she's just made some decision. She takes a breath, then, and says, only a slight tension around her eyes revealing just how uncomfortable and nervous she is saying this: ]

He went after me, too. Ages ago. Before he went after you. And I didn't say anything, because I thought it was - isolated. Stupid of me, too, I suppose.

What? Did he—

( Her mouth works silently for a second, eyes closed. Quite evidently taking a moment to try and rein in the volatile reaction she leans towards naturally. )

Did he hurt you?

What? Oh - no.

[ Kitty frowns a bit; that wasn't really the reaction she was going for. Less worry, more I can't be mad at her without being mad at myself so I won't be mad at myself and all that. Oh, well. ]

I mean - he shot lightning at me, but that's sort of - well - sort of a big who-cares, with the powers I've got.

( Sarissa: always contrary. Always. She will always find a way. )

Oh. Good.

( A relieved exhale, though she doesn't seem entirely chill about lightning. Happens, when you're electrocuted, and all that. )

You an anti-lightning machine, or something?

I've got resilience. Erm - an immunity to magic and powers. [ Translation: ] I'm awfully hard to kill, myself.

Sounds like a good power to have.

( B|a ) Does that mean healing and that wouldn't work either, but?

Yeah.

[ A little huffed sigh. ]

That part of it...It's caused some problems for me in the past.

Sorry. That's shit as.

( She's quiet, for a moment, and rolls her shoulders, forcing herself to loosen up. )

I get kind of stressed out about touching people. Or, I did - memory powers. They respond to contact. Getting better at it, now.

Oh. What sort of memory powers, exactly? If I can ask.

( Sarissa rubs her hands over her face, and shakes herself a little. ) Dunno all the ins and outs yet. I can show people my memories, see theirs. Still refining the control on that, a bit. I can put memories in inanimate objects, and sometimes I can feel traces of memories in things, but I can't always pull 'em up. I think there's other stuff I could do with it, like feeling a current under the surface? But it's a messy thing to start tangling with, I reckon. Not the kinda thing you wanna experiment with all light and easy.

Well - but why wouldn't you experiment with that? That's the only way you'll learn more, isn't it? That sounds useful, anyway.

Because what if I fuck up someone's memories? They're so important, make us what we are. Memories are the blocks that build us up. Mess with one, and it could be a keystone, y'know? Wreck everything.

Well, you can't screw it up with the memories you get from things.

Oh— yeah. I've tried a bit, with that. It's hard to know what items gonna give you something, mind.

Hm. - Do you think you'd be able to erase, erm, bad memories at some point?

I dunno. Maybe? Seems like it'd be in my repertoire. Not... not too sure how I feel about wiping memories, but. Like I said, they're building blocks. Take something away, could compromise the rest.

Maybe you ought to consult with - oh - people at a psychology department. People who know a lot about memories. I mean, it seems like there are people out there where losing memories might be...helpful to them, you know?

Maybe. Trauma victims and that? I can... see that making sense. But I reckon it'd be better if they remembered what happened, but maybe it got softened off somehow? Instead of just leaving a hole in their memory, or something. I get what you mean, though, I think.

Yeah. I guess that's for - the recommendation of therapists.

And for the recommendation of me not mucking anything up.

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