littlemissfutility: (14)
extemely beth and incredibly greene ([personal profile] littlemissfutility) wrote in [community profile] maskormenace2018-05-09 08:26 pm

video.

I was wondering--how long do you think you should wait until you decide that someone's really gone?

[In view: Beth, in a tank top, shorts, and a bunched-up scarf, sitting on a porch swing that moves idly to and fro. Good weather, the hints of picturesque countryside, even if the capsule-like building behind her is on the ugly side. Someplace out of view, a dog barks once or twice.]

Like, my boyfriend's been in and out for weeks at a time. And it's happened a lot--this is the third time now. Other people, though...they're gone, and that's it. Or they leave and come back, and the next time, that's it. It all seems so random. Looking for a pattern's gonna drive you crazy.

So when do you stop checking for their name on the network? How do you decide if this time's forever, or if it's just another phase? [A pause, her mouth tugging downward.] It's almost harder than really losing people--at least then, you know they're gone.
youresovein: (i really need a life coach.)

[personal profile] youresovein 2018-05-15 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
My sympathies, then. Truly. I think there's something cruel hidden in possibility. Disappearances leave restless ghosts, but it's your own memory that's doing the haunting.
youresovein: (heart emoji.)

[personal profile] youresovein 2018-05-23 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
And of course you know the conversations you imagine can be nothing like the real thing. [ With sincere curiosity: ] What's he like? He must really be something, if this place keeps bringing him back.