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[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

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[bespin]

When you've come from the middle of a war zone, like I have, there's a lot of things you might wish you hadn't done.

Seconds before I showed up here, I fired a shot that, on the one hand, helped win us the war, but on the other, killed countless people instantly. Many of whom were likely independent contractors, guilty of no crime besides just trying to do their jobs.

Do I regret it? No, because it will have been worth it to end the war.

Does it still keep me up at night, thinking about it? You bet.

[flightforfreedom]

[Lando's ID. He let out a breath. This was one person who would almost certainly understand exactly how Poe felt. Or if not exactly, pretty damn close.]

yeah

i don't even want to think about how many maintenance crew i've killed

but pretty sure my shot didn't end a war so much as ensure the start of one

[bespin]

That, I can't speak to. I didn't join up with this war from the starting line. In fact, I spent years trying to ignore the fact that there was a war happening at all. Sticking my head in the sand -- or the clouds, specifically -- and pretending people weren't fighting and dying just a system away.

In the end, is that any better?