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[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

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[flightforfreedom]

[Even more than Lando, Luke's parallel to Poe's own situation is extremely clear.

He has no idea how many people were on Starkiller, but he has to imagine it's at least as much as the Death Star. And Luke's shot didn't end a war.

He was hoping this post would help him feel better.

It isn't.]

i didn't even think twice about it, at the time
the stakes were too high

i figured a year would be enough time to adjust but i think it's just getting worse instead


and that's basically what i meant
not the planet itself but
the porter
the people on it

[faithfulson]

It was the same for me; there was no second guessing, or going back once I was in the cockpit. I just had to do it. No one else could.

[ He knows who this is, but he’s not going to call him out. It’s up to Poe to come to him and talk to him about it face to face. ]

Sometimes even a year isn’t enough while grounded.

[flightforfreedom]

but it bothers you now?

[That was really the only question that mattered.]

[faithfulson]

Every day.